二人を繋ぐ一本の波は暖かくもあったり
So yesterday I was hanging out with Yuuya and Kosuke and Kotaro and we had stopped by Yuuya's room so he could put some groceries into the fridge. We sat around for a while, and him and Kosuke picked up their guitars and started playing this song they had written recently. It was really impressive, as I had no idea the two of them could write and play music at all, much less as good as they do. Yuuya had written the lyrics, for Marina I'm sure, and it was a nice little emo-tastic (I say that in a good way) song. Sitting there and watching the two of them pound out their feelings on guitars, I was struck with an odd thought.
I suddenly realized the exact point in my life where perhaps I had made a big mistake: May 15th of last year when I went to Gori's house on my birthday instead of sticking around with Issei, who had driven all the way from Gunma to come see me. The whole evening was pretty weird, but it was at that exact point in time where I made the decision to persue Ane instead of Issei.
I'm not exactly sure why I was so struck with that thought, but there was just something about watching these two musician boys that made me reflect upon the talented bass player I could have had. We were so much more suited towards each other than Ane and I, who could arguably be described as more of the insensitive jock type. And while I did grow as a person and gained a lot from my relationship with Ane (he's the main reason I am who I am today), there's always that nagging thought of what could have been with the one who I let go. Why the heck did I choose Ane?? I always choose musicians, those who can pour their souls out into an instrument and make it into something beautiful. And Issei had so many great qualities.. he even speaks English with a freaking British accent and let me borrow Papillon, which I never gave back. So wtf happened? Wtf was I thinking?!
Ahh, if I could only go back to that moment. You know, regrets and all that. Nothing to do now but keep moving forward, I guess. Maybe I'll get lucky and by some miraculous coincidence we'll meet up again some day in Tokyo. If I graduate, that is!!
Tonight is drinking party at Teppei's house. I am making jell-o shots, and it will be awesome.
I suddenly realized the exact point in my life where perhaps I had made a big mistake: May 15th of last year when I went to Gori's house on my birthday instead of sticking around with Issei, who had driven all the way from Gunma to come see me. The whole evening was pretty weird, but it was at that exact point in time where I made the decision to persue Ane instead of Issei.
I'm not exactly sure why I was so struck with that thought, but there was just something about watching these two musician boys that made me reflect upon the talented bass player I could have had. We were so much more suited towards each other than Ane and I, who could arguably be described as more of the insensitive jock type. And while I did grow as a person and gained a lot from my relationship with Ane (he's the main reason I am who I am today), there's always that nagging thought of what could have been with the one who I let go. Why the heck did I choose Ane?? I always choose musicians, those who can pour their souls out into an instrument and make it into something beautiful. And Issei had so many great qualities.. he even speaks English with a freaking British accent and let me borrow Papillon, which I never gave back. So wtf happened? Wtf was I thinking?!
Ahh, if I could only go back to that moment. You know, regrets and all that. Nothing to do now but keep moving forward, I guess. Maybe I'll get lucky and by some miraculous coincidence we'll meet up again some day in Tokyo. If I graduate, that is!!
Tonight is drinking party at Teppei's house. I am making jell-o shots, and it will be awesome.