Dodge The Bullet To Be Hit By The Cannonball
Sigh...
Thats about all I can say.
I'm scared to even look at her face for fear of seeing that look of disgust...contempt there.
I'm giving her her space for now...but...I want the space to be closed.
I think...I've lost one of my best friends...
If only...the misunderstanding on my part could be taken away.
But...as someone very close to me has said...fights...only make the relationship stronger.
But when the fighting...results...in...hatred almost...I'm having trouble believing.
I'm sorry to all for what I have done.
I'm sorry to you most of all.
If you would hear it.
I dont even know if he knows...but even Jeremy seems distant from me.
There was a fight between the football teams last night.
Wish I coulda been there.
Wouldve tooken my mind off of...these things...at least...for awhile.
It still consumes my mind...at how much I dislike myself for saying those things.
But it has faded...a bit...since Sunday night.
But...if I could give anything to take it back...I would 1000 times over and over again.
Yesterday...Jeremy came up to me and asked me if I had lost one of my best friends.
And it amazed me how close he hit the mark.
And it amazed me because the person saying it was the one that caused me to blow up.
But I'm sorry for that.
So...sorry.
Taking the things away
That mean so much to me
A broken heart
Exchanged for a broken spirit
My life seems to leave me in the dust
While I sit here waiting for the next shot
It seems that Ive dodged the bullet
Just to be hit by the cannonball
Forgiveness flys upon the wings of eagles
At least to me
But it seems that yours fly on the wings of the stars
Too far for me to reach
Why cant I just recieve it
I wait patiently for the next shot to hopefully be my last
But once again it seems to miss
And instead I'm hit by the cannonball again
And I'm sure that song would only make since to stoners *shakes head* I wonder about myself sometimes.
Well...random thoughts come to an end now.
And now I'm going to bed.
So long and goodnight.
Josh
Thats about all I can say.
I'm scared to even look at her face for fear of seeing that look of disgust...contempt there.
I'm giving her her space for now...but...I want the space to be closed.
I think...I've lost one of my best friends...
If only...the misunderstanding on my part could be taken away.
But...as someone very close to me has said...fights...only make the relationship stronger.
But when the fighting...results...in...hatred almost...I'm having trouble believing.
I'm sorry to all for what I have done.
I'm sorry to you most of all.
If you would hear it.
I dont even know if he knows...but even Jeremy seems distant from me.
There was a fight between the football teams last night.
Wish I coulda been there.
Wouldve tooken my mind off of...these things...at least...for awhile.
It still consumes my mind...at how much I dislike myself for saying those things.
But it has faded...a bit...since Sunday night.
But...if I could give anything to take it back...I would 1000 times over and over again.
Yesterday...Jeremy came up to me and asked me if I had lost one of my best friends.
And it amazed me how close he hit the mark.
And it amazed me because the person saying it was the one that caused me to blow up.
But I'm sorry for that.
So...sorry.
Taking the things away
That mean so much to me
A broken heart
Exchanged for a broken spirit
My life seems to leave me in the dust
While I sit here waiting for the next shot
It seems that Ive dodged the bullet
Just to be hit by the cannonball
Forgiveness flys upon the wings of eagles
At least to me
But it seems that yours fly on the wings of the stars
Too far for me to reach
Why cant I just recieve it
I wait patiently for the next shot to hopefully be my last
But once again it seems to miss
And instead I'm hit by the cannonball again
And I'm sure that song would only make since to stoners *shakes head* I wonder about myself sometimes.
Well...random thoughts come to an end now.
And now I'm going to bed.
So long and goodnight.
Josh