Last day of school
Lord. This year has gone so fast! How cliche, i know, but ive come to the realization that as one gets older, years get shorter in perspective. Im scared to get old. Im scared to be a senior, even. Senior means.. college, responsibility, no drea.. who knows? Makes me think about leaving, anyway. I feel like.. if i tried to count on my fingers, i wouldnt have a huge number of friends, but theres like a million people i think ill miss. A lot. But especially my friends. Im allowed to say this now bc ill be gone almost all summer. Gah. ill be here, more or less, the 20-25, and then like.. august. but in august are college trips and raiderette camp. which are both intimidating enough on their own much less together. who wants to go to college? not me. well. i dont want to have to deal with being rejected from everywhere i want to go, anyway. its a shame i like california so much, bc thats like the one place my parents dont want me to go. (its too far; id never get home.) which is a good reason, really.. i want to come home and see my friends, or at least pretend to catch up with them every now and then, and cry because of the overwhelming nostalgia and for days gone by. ah, memories. its been a long year. i cant believe a year ago i was getting ready to go on my scuba adventure. it feels like yesterday. lol more cliche, but so true. gah. sad music is not helping. i should probably.. start studying. shucks.
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