black dude: "you be pimpin, dude's got 3 girls, can you spare one?" ben: "No."
oookay so I am a little out of it maybe. But I finally have time to post excuse any erros, gahhh i can't even type errors. fuck. okay so yeah i will finally postttt
i love my friends here! ben, mariele, & anne-marie are like my bffls, plus katie & ally & other ppl but omg it's so nice to actually have like legit friends that are more like me i like it
i still like ben lots but we're just really good friends right now & i'm like too afraid to bridge the gap at this point cuz like being around him is just so... relaxing & fun. i just wouldn't be able to stand if we lost our firnedship. i have no fucking clue what i'm going to do in the netherlands without himmm shitttt. but yeah idk. before i go, i might like... do something. like dance with him at a party or kiss him or whatever just to let him know i'm still interested. idk we'll seeeee!
i think i'm going to swich from bein a BA Writing/Lit/Publishing major to a BFA, with my foucs in poetry. i really like poetry, it's like all i read & i write all the tiem, it's really great. i'm getting alot bettert i thinkk
okay so one problem is that i keep getting bigger. i mean part of it s good because it s my chest and butt haha but then it's like my waist a little like lamost a muffin top saddddd =((( but idk it's not really bad. also boys like me more now. i've made out with people, mostly strangers: a guy who graduated from northeastern in 2007 but i didn't know this until halfway in (it's a 5 year school so that's sketchy as fuckkk), an adorable freshman at bu, & then my friend herbert who's from hong kong & has a british accent haha. plus ppl actually wanta dance with me! & the other day i was in the lirbray reading poetry & this guy came up to me & was like, i know this is strange, but i just want to tell you that you're really cute. who are you? haha so we had this short convo & he asked for my name to friend me on faceboook & we've been intermittently chatting, i just gave him my number so maybe he will text some time soon. but the thing is, his facebook says he's a berklee alum so that's kinda weird guess he's taking classes through the consortium FUCK HE JUST TEXTED ME GAHHH.
i'm fucking OBSESSED witeh the music video & dsong "bad romance" by lady gaga omg
ok so ben, mariele., anne-marie & i walked out of the elevator to come to the suite like an hour ago. & i walked outta the elevator first & i turned & saw the solid wall on one side so i turned to go to t he door on the opposite side of the hall AND IT WAS SOLID TOO & I STARTED FREAKING OUT INSIDE CUZ I WAS TRAPPED but then i rmeembered i was with my firends & also then they wre like caitlin, what are you goingggg? you even looked at the right side first haha fml i'm crazy.
i'm flying down to cape may in a week & a half weird to be there for the first time since i like legit lived there for fuicking 3 months! gahh its gonnabe so strange for me but oh well haha
school is so stupid. im doing like okay n everthing but i'm like so apathetic about it, i like barely try in anything except poetry & ASL. my other 2 classes are just total bull & i don't give a shit lol bull shittttttttttttttt
i got my hair dyed a lighter shade of red & got blonde highlights, but it doesn't really look that diff unless the lirghtng is rightttt
okay fuck i should go will probably regeret typing this tomorrow while in this state haha
so many funny & depressing things happen on a daily bsais here , i can't believe ittttttt
i love my friends here! ben, mariele, & anne-marie are like my bffls, plus katie & ally & other ppl but omg it's so nice to actually have like legit friends that are more like me i like it
i still like ben lots but we're just really good friends right now & i'm like too afraid to bridge the gap at this point cuz like being around him is just so... relaxing & fun. i just wouldn't be able to stand if we lost our firnedship. i have no fucking clue what i'm going to do in the netherlands without himmm shitttt. but yeah idk. before i go, i might like... do something. like dance with him at a party or kiss him or whatever just to let him know i'm still interested. idk we'll seeeee!
i think i'm going to swich from bein a BA Writing/Lit/Publishing major to a BFA, with my foucs in poetry. i really like poetry, it's like all i read & i write all the tiem, it's really great. i'm getting alot bettert i thinkk
okay so one problem is that i keep getting bigger. i mean part of it s good because it s my chest and butt haha but then it's like my waist a little like lamost a muffin top saddddd =((( but idk it's not really bad. also boys like me more now. i've made out with people, mostly strangers: a guy who graduated from northeastern in 2007 but i didn't know this until halfway in (it's a 5 year school so that's sketchy as fuckkk), an adorable freshman at bu, & then my friend herbert who's from hong kong & has a british accent haha. plus ppl actually wanta dance with me! & the other day i was in the lirbray reading poetry & this guy came up to me & was like, i know this is strange, but i just want to tell you that you're really cute. who are you? haha so we had this short convo & he asked for my name to friend me on faceboook & we've been intermittently chatting, i just gave him my number so maybe he will text some time soon. but the thing is, his facebook says he's a berklee alum so that's kinda weird guess he's taking classes through the consortium FUCK HE JUST TEXTED ME GAHHH.
i'm fucking OBSESSED witeh the music video & dsong "bad romance" by lady gaga omg
ok so ben, mariele., anne-marie & i walked out of the elevator to come to the suite like an hour ago. & i walked outta the elevator first & i turned & saw the solid wall on one side so i turned to go to t he door on the opposite side of the hall AND IT WAS SOLID TOO & I STARTED FREAKING OUT INSIDE CUZ I WAS TRAPPED but then i rmeembered i was with my firends & also then they wre like caitlin, what are you goingggg? you even looked at the right side first haha fml i'm crazy.
i'm flying down to cape may in a week & a half weird to be there for the first time since i like legit lived there for fuicking 3 months! gahh its gonnabe so strange for me but oh well haha
school is so stupid. im doing like okay n everthing but i'm like so apathetic about it, i like barely try in anything except poetry & ASL. my other 2 classes are just total bull & i don't give a shit lol bull shittttttttttttttt
i got my hair dyed a lighter shade of red & got blonde highlights, but it doesn't really look that diff unless the lirghtng is rightttt
okay fuck i should go will probably regeret typing this tomorrow while in this state haha
so many funny & depressing things happen on a daily bsais here , i can't believe ittttttt