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ugh do i hate stress. isnt it beautiful outside. doesnt it make you happy just looking at it. i am, but ive always loved looking at nature.
life is getting tougher and ive realized how on edge i am so im trying to get help but i dont think it's going to work. who am i kidding, i was ment for destruction ever since i was born and i think that this world would be so much better without crazy people such as myself, and yes i feel sorry for myself but im serious at the same time.
everything that i am in control of is slipping though my fingers like water and it scares me. i need to release myself from this hate and i need to let the truth out so i can grow. and i need my friends back, i want them to trust me and i want them to think ill be there for them. but in order for that to happen i really need to beileve that ill be there for them.
i miss my friends in a yearning kind of way. i see them every day but i dont connect. it sucks. and as soon as my last strand of sanity is snipped i dont know what im going to do with myself.
i need change i need something in my life that's stable something that makes me happy, i just dont know what.
life is getting tougher and ive realized how on edge i am so im trying to get help but i dont think it's going to work. who am i kidding, i was ment for destruction ever since i was born and i think that this world would be so much better without crazy people such as myself, and yes i feel sorry for myself but im serious at the same time.
everything that i am in control of is slipping though my fingers like water and it scares me. i need to release myself from this hate and i need to let the truth out so i can grow. and i need my friends back, i want them to trust me and i want them to think ill be there for them. but in order for that to happen i really need to beileve that ill be there for them.
i miss my friends in a yearning kind of way. i see them every day but i dont connect. it sucks. and as soon as my last strand of sanity is snipped i dont know what im going to do with myself.
i need change i need something in my life that's stable something that makes me happy, i just dont know what.