White Flag
Studying for two exams at once is death. And a third exam on Monday makes me feel like there will be no time to celebrate or relax in between, even for a minute. I'm worried that all the work I've put into these courses is going to get flushed down the shitter because I wasn't prepared to study for three exams at once. I've had the luxury of having a couple days off between all of my exams until now, and never had so many so close to each other. I`ll be better prepared for a scenario like this in the future, but for this time... I`m overwhelmed. I've pretty much decided to scrap studying for one of the exams and just hope the knowledge I have in my head stays there and isn't displaced by the other knowledge I'm shoving in for my other courses. I have this awful feeling I will be REALLY bombing one of the exams, but thankfully that is a course that I have lots of time to drop; hopefully it doesn't come to that, though.
I don't know why I'm terrified of getting poor marks because I don't think I'll be doing anything after my undergrad, but I'd hate to screw up future plans because I fucked up and got a D in an elective course; children's literature of all things. I'd much rather drop it if I do poorly on this exam, and do a summer course to make up for it, than let it shit on my entire audit.
Also, I feel like I've been missing out on so much activity! The bus strike hasn't had an affect on me yet, as I've been inside studying since it started, but would it seem morbid if I said I can't wait to get downtown and see how it is without public transportation? I have this visual in my head of there being barely any pedestrian traffic, and Rideau Centre being a ghost mall, and the roads being quiet like they are in the suburbs... but I have a feeling I have it all wrong. Oh well, guess I`ll find out Saturday morning... if I can find a way to get to work myself. Interesting.