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It seems like the more you try to run away from something the more it chases you around the world.
I may be a very complex and perhaps even confused person when it comes to my personal life and the kind of person I want to be. I may not know what I want but I sure as hell know what I dont want. And I have been aware of it ever since I was a little girl and could tell right from wrong.
I suppose I dont fit in this insane society my mother keeps telling me I should play a bigger role in. I just dont see what could be so exciting about garden parties and charity foundations (especially when these people donate thousands to charities but refuse to be better people).
I have always been opinionated and yes, its gotten me in some trouble but its definitely allowed me to have fun and explore the other side of things. I know im not perfect (far from it if you ask around) but I have always tried to be a kind person and have some sort of impact in the life of those I happen to come across in the process. I know I am taking a huge risk going my own way. Im sure its going to be tough. But thats a risk im willing to take. I look around and I see my cousins situation. She is completely unhappy but refuses to get a divorce, not because she believes that you should honor your vows but because she doesnt want to have people talk about her or lose all of the material possessions she has accumulated along with her husband. She prefers to continue to live unhappy than to be brave and face reality.
I dont know where ill be in five or ten years but I know I dont want to find myself living in a beautiful home, driving an expensive car, wearing designer clothes, married to a rich and powerful man who only married me because I simply fit in.
I find it quite comic how some men work so hard to be wealthy and have lots of nice things. Own a big house, drive an expensive car and then they think they just need to find someone whos a little easy on the eyes and can fit right into everything hes worked for. Its like buying a barbie and putting her inside that really big pink barbie house that comes beautifully decorated with a convertible on the drive way. Then you go ahead and give her a gold AMEX and she´ll entertain herself and leave you alone, until you need her to host the annual christmas party.
The more I curse those kind of men the more they try to convince themselves that I am the one. I just dont get it. I dont flirt, I barely talk to them. I give them no sign of interest and there they are thinking I am the fucking one!
Why? OH heres the best answer so far, "because you show no sign of interest I know you must be different", oh seriously, fuck off! I am starting to lose my patience here. I can hear my mother in the back round sizing me up for a wedding dress and making plans haha . If she only knew!
Im still trying to fool myself into believing there are better people out there. I refuse to give up on our kind so quickly. I was talking to a friend the other day who feels the same way. Its good to know there are still people out there who appreciate the little things. Things that usually get overlooked in our day to day. Its just good to know that there still are some who believe that life is made up of all the tiny little moments and when you put them all together only then will you get the big picture!
I may be a very complex and perhaps even confused person when it comes to my personal life and the kind of person I want to be. I may not know what I want but I sure as hell know what I dont want. And I have been aware of it ever since I was a little girl and could tell right from wrong.
I suppose I dont fit in this insane society my mother keeps telling me I should play a bigger role in. I just dont see what could be so exciting about garden parties and charity foundations (especially when these people donate thousands to charities but refuse to be better people).
I have always been opinionated and yes, its gotten me in some trouble but its definitely allowed me to have fun and explore the other side of things. I know im not perfect (far from it if you ask around) but I have always tried to be a kind person and have some sort of impact in the life of those I happen to come across in the process. I know I am taking a huge risk going my own way. Im sure its going to be tough. But thats a risk im willing to take. I look around and I see my cousins situation. She is completely unhappy but refuses to get a divorce, not because she believes that you should honor your vows but because she doesnt want to have people talk about her or lose all of the material possessions she has accumulated along with her husband. She prefers to continue to live unhappy than to be brave and face reality.
I dont know where ill be in five or ten years but I know I dont want to find myself living in a beautiful home, driving an expensive car, wearing designer clothes, married to a rich and powerful man who only married me because I simply fit in.
I find it quite comic how some men work so hard to be wealthy and have lots of nice things. Own a big house, drive an expensive car and then they think they just need to find someone whos a little easy on the eyes and can fit right into everything hes worked for. Its like buying a barbie and putting her inside that really big pink barbie house that comes beautifully decorated with a convertible on the drive way. Then you go ahead and give her a gold AMEX and she´ll entertain herself and leave you alone, until you need her to host the annual christmas party.
The more I curse those kind of men the more they try to convince themselves that I am the one. I just dont get it. I dont flirt, I barely talk to them. I give them no sign of interest and there they are thinking I am the fucking one!
Why? OH heres the best answer so far, "because you show no sign of interest I know you must be different", oh seriously, fuck off! I am starting to lose my patience here. I can hear my mother in the back round sizing me up for a wedding dress and making plans haha . If she only knew!
Im still trying to fool myself into believing there are better people out there. I refuse to give up on our kind so quickly. I was talking to a friend the other day who feels the same way. Its good to know there are still people out there who appreciate the little things. Things that usually get overlooked in our day to day. Its just good to know that there still are some who believe that life is made up of all the tiny little moments and when you put them all together only then will you get the big picture!