100 Fic Challenge: Trouble Lurking
Prompt Number: 25
Author: selvanic
Series: Saiyuki
Word Count: 574
Characters/Pairings: Ukoku; mention of Ukoku/Koumyou
Rating: PG-13; for implied sexual relations
Summary: You knew from the beginning, but you did nothing.
You knew, didn't you? From the very beginning, you knew. But you were never one to interfere. You were never one to step in where it wasn't your place to step in. You were never one to stop someone from simply being who they were meant to be. Or who you believed they were meant to be. You always had such an admirable belief in 'fate' and 'destiny'...Just another thing that set you apart and drew me in closer.
With everything that happened, though, I can't help but wonder why you were at all drawn to me. You knew what I would do, knew what I was capable of, and yet you let me in. You let me get close. You let me have you in ways I doubt you let anyone else have you. Though you always managed to make it clear to me that you weren't mine, regardless of how much I may have wanted as much. Only you could have told me that without losing my interest entirely. Perhaps because you presented me with the challenge I was always looking for.
You were - and always will be - a puzzle I couldn't solve. You were something I couldn't overcome. You were someone who understood me, but didn't fear me. You were the only one who saw me for what I was. And you were the only one who would welcome me into your home with open arms.
You were the one who named me, the one who witnessed my rebirth through my failure to die. You'd known, after he had made his decisions, that I would lash out. You had known that I would come for him and wouldn't stop until I'd proven myself. You even knew that the students he had chosen were bound to die by my hand as well. Even when you named me, even as you gave me my title, you knew that that wouldn't be the last life I'd take. I could see it in your face.
Yet you did nothing to stop me. You did nothing to change me. You did nothing to hinder me. You simply stood back and let me flourish on my own. You went as far as offering me your hand when you believed I was in need of your assistance.
I wondered, briefly, if perhaps you were tired of everything as well, if perhaps you wanted to see it all torn apart the way I intended to tear it down around our ears. But that wasn't it, was it? You simply didn't believe in tampering. You didn't believe in forcing people to change. You wanted the world to run its course, however it would, and you simply wanted to give everyone - absolutely everyone - an equal chance.
But now that you're gone, now that things have been left without your nurturing influence, I wonder if you knew any of this would happen. I wonder if you knew I'd fall apart. I wonder if you knew that I would go after your 'son'. I wonder if you knew how much he would cost me, how much losing you would cost me.
You understood my motives, understood my mind, so you undoubtedly understood where said things would take me. You knew the devastation I would cause...Perhaps you knew I would get what was coming to me. Perhaps your belief in the universe and its balance had some merit after all.
Author: selvanic
Series: Saiyuki
Word Count: 574
Characters/Pairings: Ukoku; mention of Ukoku/Koumyou
Rating: PG-13; for implied sexual relations
Summary: You knew from the beginning, but you did nothing.
You knew, didn't you? From the very beginning, you knew. But you were never one to interfere. You were never one to step in where it wasn't your place to step in. You were never one to stop someone from simply being who they were meant to be. Or who you believed they were meant to be. You always had such an admirable belief in 'fate' and 'destiny'...Just another thing that set you apart and drew me in closer.
With everything that happened, though, I can't help but wonder why you were at all drawn to me. You knew what I would do, knew what I was capable of, and yet you let me in. You let me get close. You let me have you in ways I doubt you let anyone else have you. Though you always managed to make it clear to me that you weren't mine, regardless of how much I may have wanted as much. Only you could have told me that without losing my interest entirely. Perhaps because you presented me with the challenge I was always looking for.
You were - and always will be - a puzzle I couldn't solve. You were something I couldn't overcome. You were someone who understood me, but didn't fear me. You were the only one who saw me for what I was. And you were the only one who would welcome me into your home with open arms.
You were the one who named me, the one who witnessed my rebirth through my failure to die. You'd known, after he had made his decisions, that I would lash out. You had known that I would come for him and wouldn't stop until I'd proven myself. You even knew that the students he had chosen were bound to die by my hand as well. Even when you named me, even as you gave me my title, you knew that that wouldn't be the last life I'd take. I could see it in your face.
Yet you did nothing to stop me. You did nothing to change me. You did nothing to hinder me. You simply stood back and let me flourish on my own. You went as far as offering me your hand when you believed I was in need of your assistance.
I wondered, briefly, if perhaps you were tired of everything as well, if perhaps you wanted to see it all torn apart the way I intended to tear it down around our ears. But that wasn't it, was it? You simply didn't believe in tampering. You didn't believe in forcing people to change. You wanted the world to run its course, however it would, and you simply wanted to give everyone - absolutely everyone - an equal chance.
But now that you're gone, now that things have been left without your nurturing influence, I wonder if you knew any of this would happen. I wonder if you knew I'd fall apart. I wonder if you knew that I would go after your 'son'. I wonder if you knew how much he would cost me, how much losing you would cost me.
You understood my motives, understood my mind, so you undoubtedly understood where said things would take me. You knew the devastation I would cause...Perhaps you knew I would get what was coming to me. Perhaps your belief in the universe and its balance had some merit after all.