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i just finished cleaning my room. it's pretty clean now, i guess...
well last few weeks have been only so-so. I had a lot of fun at the OC Fair... lots of yummy food!! (: And vance got second in a pie eating contest. I didn't watch any falling stars, though.It's too bright here. Maybe someday. And then two days ago, my plans got blown off by someone close(for the upteenth time this summer)... sometimes I wonder if my friends even want to hang out with me anymore... it's almost as if certain people are trying to avoid me someway or another, even though from now on we'll be seing a lot less of each other(although I do have friends where that has already been true since we went to different high schools).
I've been watching a lot of Everwood lately... I really like that show... just a little ranting but, Amy is probably the most annoying and immature character on the show... jeezus woman. And then I really hate Ephram and Madison's relationship... it's just so... weird... cheesy and... weird... and just not right. And I think whenever the two are on screen together it prompts for some seriously bad scriptwriting and acting(although when I say "bad" i mean "bad for Everwood", because honestly, there is very little bad acting on the show). I do think that Ephram and Dr. Brown's scenes are the best though... it's the most realistic portrayal of family fighting I've ever seen, anyway. xD
But the other day I stayed up real late and I fell asleep... when I woke up it was past eleven and I had a headache. The day before I had went shopping for some dorm supplies like bed sheets and comforters and a laundry bag. I kind of lied in bed, half trying to get back to sleep, half making a list in my head about what else I would need to bring. I came up with all kinds of things. Lots of things... because I realized that I couldn't really come back home to get them anymore. Well, I guess my parents could mail something to me if I forgot something really important. And then I thought, what would it be like, after the first day there, and then to wake up, and not be where I was, but be in some place else... and that's when I realized: I really am moving out. I mean, sure, A lot of my things will still be here, but the majority of my year from then on will be away from my parents and siblings for the rest of my life. It's a little sad. and a little scary. and a little exciting. it's a little bit of a lot of things all rolled into one. And then yesterday, my sister asked me what the hell I was doing when I opened up the package of my extra long bed sheets and chose to carefully not touch them and intead just sniff them... I wanted to keep them clean until I actually get to use them... but I'm having a hard time waiting to, honestly.
I'm also starting to learn how to drive... when my dad was teaching me, I didn't have a problem. We were driving for almost an hour and I had a lot of fun. I didn't find it scary or intimidating at all. But then the second time, my mom went with me. It lasted about 5 minutes before we ended up back in the house yelling at each other. I sometimes wonder if this is how our relationship will be for my entire life. I started to cry, and I didn't really know why or how we got into the argument. I sometimes wonder if it's because my mom has a condascending way of speaking. Or maybe it's because I have a condascending way of speaking. Maybe we're both just too stubborn but somehow in between there's always a misunderstanding in between us. At that time, I really felt hurt, because I was scared that I would leave with her believing that I had ill feelings toward her... and scared more that I really would.
But these days, I've been getting a lot of stomach aches. I don't believe they are from stress or anything like that... but they aren't so bad now... much worse before. Of course, anyone I told would automatically reply(as if by reflex) "peptobismal." Ok thanks, guys, but it really isn't that... and no it's not "TOM" either... I've had a total of maybe three cramps in my entire lifetime because of that, it would be odd that I would suddenly start getting stomach pains ever 20-40 minutes(and yes it really was that often). Pain was never sharp, although it did come on extremely suddenly sometimes, but the it was always a dull feeling. So now that I'm eighteen, I almost got a chance to go to the doctor all by myself. Of course, my mom wouldn't really have any of it, and told me to ask my brother to take me... el sigh. Well, in the end my stomach started hurting less and I decided I shouldn't go afterall. It still starts to hurt just a little sometimes. But I don't think it's anything to worry about. It'll probably be completely gone in a week.