the wheels are turning
I often get too worked up by what others think of me, being a full libra.. and a very social person; tend to care too much about how the world sees me instead of just being happy with what i am and what i got.
I've got a lot to think and ponder about these days.
One discussion that passed during the spa-day was; what do i want from life..
a question not easily answered.
I'm normally the type that hates to plan things in exact rows, because i KNOW life doesn't work that way and i rather not be dissappointed. But i do have a ' gut feeling' of what i want in (hopefully) a couple of years.
Now that I'm on my own, and are far more comfertable in my own skin i think i've found there is something that i want. I'm rather done with short relationships or flings.. I really would like, no love, to settle with someone at some point. Just a solid thing that can give both me and the possible partner the thing we both want out of life together.
I'm 25, so i'm still in the very prime of my life. And i know it is maybe a bit early to think of these things, but it lingers in the back of my head and I can't seem to put it away again. nor do i want to.
I'm pretty happy with how life is now, don't get me wrong. but i'm starting to have a vision of how i want things to be.
this is the first time in years, that i have the feeling i'm ready.. you know? ready for ' the big thing' .. done with boyfriends who don't last, done with heartaches and other love-pains.
but at the same time there's this nagging voice in my head trying to convince me that no guy in the right mind would want to spend his life with me :p let alone live together and (hopefully) be married. I guess i'm just a princess after all, waiting for her fairytale ending.
apart from the fact that i am a dragon in girl-shape.. and not a princess after all. :p
and i know for sure, that there's a knight around that wouldn't mind slaying the princess and saving the dragon from that fairytale tower in far-far-away ;) and when he does i'll be right here.. waiting for him
I've got a lot to think and ponder about these days.
One discussion that passed during the spa-day was; what do i want from life..
a question not easily answered.
I'm normally the type that hates to plan things in exact rows, because i KNOW life doesn't work that way and i rather not be dissappointed. But i do have a ' gut feeling' of what i want in (hopefully) a couple of years.
Now that I'm on my own, and are far more comfertable in my own skin i think i've found there is something that i want. I'm rather done with short relationships or flings.. I really would like, no love, to settle with someone at some point. Just a solid thing that can give both me and the possible partner the thing we both want out of life together.
I'm 25, so i'm still in the very prime of my life. And i know it is maybe a bit early to think of these things, but it lingers in the back of my head and I can't seem to put it away again. nor do i want to.
I'm pretty happy with how life is now, don't get me wrong. but i'm starting to have a vision of how i want things to be.
this is the first time in years, that i have the feeling i'm ready.. you know? ready for ' the big thing' .. done with boyfriends who don't last, done with heartaches and other love-pains.
but at the same time there's this nagging voice in my head trying to convince me that no guy in the right mind would want to spend his life with me :p let alone live together and (hopefully) be married. I guess i'm just a princess after all, waiting for her fairytale ending.
apart from the fact that i am a dragon in girl-shape.. and not a princess after all. :p
and i know for sure, that there's a knight around that wouldn't mind slaying the princess and saving the dragon from that fairytale tower in far-far-away ;) and when he does i'll be right here.. waiting for him