west coast scenery
i hate being so damned contemplative. i'm supposed to be in bed. i said i was going back to sleep...but i can't. my back hurts too much and i've got way too much on my mind anyways. i act on impulse so much. i wonder if i've messed things up and haven't realized it yet. i hate when i doubt all of my actions. and then i just start rambling in this thing...i just wish you would call me. really i do. just do that so i can talk to you. and if you don't want to talk to me after i get a chance to talk to you that's okay. i just need your voice. call me when you see this. if you see this? i love you. bye.