Loneliness
...I feel incredibly, profoundly lonely right now. I wish I could turn back the clock to...I don't know when. Sometime before now. Sometime when my head was full of stories and dreams and everything was full of promise. Maybe it's just seasonal affectiveness, and all I need to do is get some vitamin D in me. Or maybe I just need some kind of distraction.
Last night we had some family over for Thanksgiving. Uncle Ken started asking dad about how work was going. Here's a hint: it's not going well. Dad is an options trader, and he has recently begun trading with a new company, and he has not been doing well with it. If it is not going better by January, he and Mom are thinking they may have to sell the house and move someplace smaller.
...I learned about this last month. But yesterday was the reminder I did not need. I am not ready to lose my childhood home yet. I don't even have my own home yet.
My mood is not helped by how poorly I slept last night.
Last night we had some family over for Thanksgiving. Uncle Ken started asking dad about how work was going. Here's a hint: it's not going well. Dad is an options trader, and he has recently begun trading with a new company, and he has not been doing well with it. If it is not going better by January, he and Mom are thinking they may have to sell the house and move someplace smaller.
...I learned about this last month. But yesterday was the reminder I did not need. I am not ready to lose my childhood home yet. I don't even have my own home yet.
My mood is not helped by how poorly I slept last night.