Lyrics to the song of my activities...
Have you ever noticed that at night there is a moment when you are tired and begin to let go of certain...constraints? You notice that you become slightly more eccentric and a bit more of an interesting character. Sometimes this can be misinterpreted by others in such horrible ways.
At other times it is accurately interpreted and can make for quite an interesting conversation.
I began working at my current place of "employment" in Fall of 2008. Come August 31st, the Fall 2009 semester begins and I will officially (technically) have been employed for one year with SADC. In the Fall of 2008 I was merely an impromptu SI; hired one month into an already maturing semester in order to fill a gap from Julianne left behind when she gave the position up. I was rushed in. I was confused. But none the less I enjoyed it greatly.
So there I was, not even with SADC for a full semester and already being asked to take on a supervisor position. Technically it is still a student position but it does involve a higher pay rate then the other spots, albeit only by a small amount. Once again I was rushed in. I was confused. But none the less I enjoyed it greatly.
So there I was, not even with SADC for two full semesters and already being asked (or told depending on how you look at it) to take on a co-coordinator position for the supplemental instruction program. Still, a student position, although several have been trying to push for it to become a full-time staff position. The powers that be within the Purdue world of magical money crunching and cost analysis still do not believe it to be worth such a thing though. Once again...I am rushed in. I am confused. But none the less...
One year is coming up soon. August 31st will be the "technical" one-year mark. September will be the real one-year mark. I have gone from the newbie SI, to the supervisor/SI/open tutor/private tutor/random helper, to the co-coordinator of the Supplemental Instruction Program.
And in that time every person that I have grown to enjoy at SADC seems to have vanished or is going to vanish. Julianne...who motivated me to take the step (Jayme tried a long time ago but did not push my buttons enough)...definitely Julianne is the one I miss a lot. Maria would be the next in line if I had to put people in prioritized list. Jermeka, despite us not really talking a whole lot the entire year. Vineti is gone now too. Mirna will be gone soon. Brenda has left and Natalie left with her! Natalie was my supervisor the first semester and she was quite helpful. I had a crush on her then but I tried very hard to not let that trip me up. They are all gone or leaving. There are still a few there that bring a smile to my face when I see them, but that same good energy they brought to me when I saw them each day has disappeared with them.
There are many new faces at the office now. I have been through some interesting scenario's despite only being "co-coordinator" for such a short time and during a very, very quiet period of time. All these new faces...I am getting to know them. But you always know when you say goodbye to someone that you can not simply replace them in your soul.
My greatest concern right now is my memory. I am finding it harder to remember things. It is as if the memories are at my fingertips but I need something...something physical to jog it into action. Essay tests are my bane on an epic proportion. Multiple-choice and fill-in-the-blank tests are a god-send. I will ace every single one you put in front of me if I have been presented with the material before hand or have been given the chance to study the material covered by the test. I guarantee it. But simply recalling some things...it is bad.
My second concern would be how I have become at SADC. When I first started I was high-strung and cautious. Always on my toes and paying very close attention to everything. I had such motivation and effort put into everything. But now, now I am becoming lax. I am comfortable. But at the same time my new position is very uncomfortable. The way I am acting needs to change. I can not just simply be lax and going with the flow when it comes to this. I need to find a way to get serious again. At this very moment there is a feeling of seriousness flowing through me but as the sun rises, it will be gone. There has to be a way to get this feeling, this motivation to turn on at will.
Hopefully I do not have to deprive myself of sleep to get it to turn on though.
I think I will use an older picture for this post. It may or may not scare you but I have thought about being both figures in that picture. The reason I drew that so long ago eludes me...
Hopefully I have not wasted too much of your time by tossing this out there. I just thought it was time for me to say something...and to be a little more serious. I have been too playful lately.
At other times it is accurately interpreted and can make for quite an interesting conversation.
I began working at my current place of "employment" in Fall of 2008. Come August 31st, the Fall 2009 semester begins and I will officially (technically) have been employed for one year with SADC. In the Fall of 2008 I was merely an impromptu SI; hired one month into an already maturing semester in order to fill a gap from Julianne left behind when she gave the position up. I was rushed in. I was confused. But none the less I enjoyed it greatly.
So there I was, not even with SADC for a full semester and already being asked to take on a supervisor position. Technically it is still a student position but it does involve a higher pay rate then the other spots, albeit only by a small amount. Once again I was rushed in. I was confused. But none the less I enjoyed it greatly.
So there I was, not even with SADC for two full semesters and already being asked (or told depending on how you look at it) to take on a co-coordinator position for the supplemental instruction program. Still, a student position, although several have been trying to push for it to become a full-time staff position. The powers that be within the Purdue world of magical money crunching and cost analysis still do not believe it to be worth such a thing though. Once again...I am rushed in. I am confused. But none the less...
One year is coming up soon. August 31st will be the "technical" one-year mark. September will be the real one-year mark. I have gone from the newbie SI, to the supervisor/SI/open tutor/private tutor/random helper, to the co-coordinator of the Supplemental Instruction Program.
And in that time every person that I have grown to enjoy at SADC seems to have vanished or is going to vanish. Julianne...who motivated me to take the step (Jayme tried a long time ago but did not push my buttons enough)...definitely Julianne is the one I miss a lot. Maria would be the next in line if I had to put people in prioritized list. Jermeka, despite us not really talking a whole lot the entire year. Vineti is gone now too. Mirna will be gone soon. Brenda has left and Natalie left with her! Natalie was my supervisor the first semester and she was quite helpful. I had a crush on her then but I tried very hard to not let that trip me up. They are all gone or leaving. There are still a few there that bring a smile to my face when I see them, but that same good energy they brought to me when I saw them each day has disappeared with them.
There are many new faces at the office now. I have been through some interesting scenario's despite only being "co-coordinator" for such a short time and during a very, very quiet period of time. All these new faces...I am getting to know them. But you always know when you say goodbye to someone that you can not simply replace them in your soul.
My greatest concern right now is my memory. I am finding it harder to remember things. It is as if the memories are at my fingertips but I need something...something physical to jog it into action. Essay tests are my bane on an epic proportion. Multiple-choice and fill-in-the-blank tests are a god-send. I will ace every single one you put in front of me if I have been presented with the material before hand or have been given the chance to study the material covered by the test. I guarantee it. But simply recalling some things...it is bad.
My second concern would be how I have become at SADC. When I first started I was high-strung and cautious. Always on my toes and paying very close attention to everything. I had such motivation and effort put into everything. But now, now I am becoming lax. I am comfortable. But at the same time my new position is very uncomfortable. The way I am acting needs to change. I can not just simply be lax and going with the flow when it comes to this. I need to find a way to get serious again. At this very moment there is a feeling of seriousness flowing through me but as the sun rises, it will be gone. There has to be a way to get this feeling, this motivation to turn on at will.
Hopefully I do not have to deprive myself of sleep to get it to turn on though.
I think I will use an older picture for this post. It may or may not scare you but I have thought about being both figures in that picture. The reason I drew that so long ago eludes me...
Hopefully I have not wasted too much of your time by tossing this out there. I just thought it was time for me to say something...and to be a little more serious. I have been too playful lately.