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I lurk here.
I see your posts. I have comments on most of the things said...but I never feel like I have the right words to use.
This used to be a place where I could kind of just...spout off all sorts of things. It sure doesn't feel like it anymore. That or the sort of things I want to talk about or not appropriate for anyone to be reading. As time moves further along in my life, the results of talking about some things become more and more frightening. You never quite know what the impact of saying something will be.
So I look for distant people. People who physically can't ruin my life. People who are a screen name with no real world impact. Sharing things with these "internet creatures" is better then nothing.
One thing I am not afraid to say is this - I have no idea what to do with my life. Currently I have the "plan" to attend grad school next year. I have barely done any prep work on getting that started. My dad wants me to put in an application with the FBI. My backup idea was to just start tossing in applications/resume's to as many government agencies as possible. I'm confident I could get an interview somewhere with the meager resume that I have. But that does not mean I know what I *want* to do.
I feel kind of bad...I'm better at helping other people with their own goals then creating and achieving my own.
I see your posts. I have comments on most of the things said...but I never feel like I have the right words to use.
This used to be a place where I could kind of just...spout off all sorts of things. It sure doesn't feel like it anymore. That or the sort of things I want to talk about or not appropriate for anyone to be reading. As time moves further along in my life, the results of talking about some things become more and more frightening. You never quite know what the impact of saying something will be.
So I look for distant people. People who physically can't ruin my life. People who are a screen name with no real world impact. Sharing things with these "internet creatures" is better then nothing.
One thing I am not afraid to say is this - I have no idea what to do with my life. Currently I have the "plan" to attend grad school next year. I have barely done any prep work on getting that started. My dad wants me to put in an application with the FBI. My backup idea was to just start tossing in applications/resume's to as many government agencies as possible. I'm confident I could get an interview somewhere with the meager resume that I have. But that does not mean I know what I *want* to do.
I feel kind of bad...I'm better at helping other people with their own goals then creating and achieving my own.