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This entry will be covering my overwhelming love for Christ, so those with negative thoughts or feelings, please hold your comments for someone else. If you want to comment with a neutral/positive attitude you are welcome to :)
Recently I was exposed to one of the best christian songs I have ever heard, thanks to Katie Jo. Those who have never heard it, please consider downloading it NOW. "Here With Me" by Mercy Me. Wow...
I'll give you the lyrics...
I long for your embrace
Every single day
To meet you in this place
And see you face to face
Will you show me?
Reveal yourself to me
Because of your mercy
I fall down on my knees
And I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender to your love
You're everywhere I go
I am not alone
You call me as your own
To know you and be known
You are holy
And I fall down on my knees
I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender to your love
I surrender to your grace
I surrender to the one who took my place
I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender:
I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender to your love
wow wow wow wow wow. Is it possible to feel closer to God by just knowing and adoring such a song? It's more then just a song. I want to feel God so much and I do when I totally surrender and let myself feel Him. I get caught up in such nonsignificant things sometimes. When hearing these words and really thinking about them, I know that nothing is worth more then knowing, loving, and sharing the warmth and love of Jesus Christ. I want to know Him so much, more and more each day, and everytime I get caught up in a silly wordly worry, I lose a chance to have Him revealed to me. The only thing I need is His beauty. I want to be lost only in His word. At this point in my life, I need to give up everything that is keeping me away from fully knowing my creator. I need to get rid of my insecurity, my dreaded self-loathing og myself and my image, the demon of depression that lives and breathes inside of me. I don't need it.
Forever, I have been trying to live with more then I need to when really it just needs to be God and me. Whoever else wants to come along for the ride is welcome, but I can't fall away again. He is way too important to not be fully captivated and amazed by. I have been trying so hard to find my self worth within a dating relationship when really the only guy right now I need to focus on is more then a saturday night date or a hand to hold at the movies. It would be nice to have, but I will let that come when it does. I don't need a boyfriend like I need Christ. I don't need physical warmth from another human being as much as I need spiritual worth from the almighty living God. This song wasn't the only thing that brought about this long, thoughtful entry. I just have been really trying to truthfully look into myself and see what I am missing, and Christ is there, but He isn't included in everything that He needs to be included in (if that makes any sense). You can't be a half way, portion, of a christian.
For a while in my life I have given God only a few factors that needed to be dealt with, but I still held on to the ones that I wanted to handle by myself. I cannot resolve anything the way I want to or truly feel fulfilled in a decision unless Christ is 150% behind it. I can't expect him to unless I let Him and I long so much for control and normalacy and sanity, but really, I know now that the only chance for control I have is to give up everything and let Him take me as I am. I have no idea how he could still want me as I am and sometimes I try to hold myself off from Him until I try and better myself and tidy up the things I am ashamed of...but how can I truly call myself redeemed unless I give myself to Him regardless of the shape I'm in. I am in it for the long hall kids. I tried a life without him, and i just couldn't do it. I need my Father in heaven to know and respect who I am and with that, nothing else should matter.
God Bless all of those who read through all of this. This has just been a really weird, yet inspirational night. Thanks to Katie for telling me about the song, and thanks to God Himself for putting up with me over the years. I am ready to surrender all.
Recently I was exposed to one of the best christian songs I have ever heard, thanks to Katie Jo. Those who have never heard it, please consider downloading it NOW. "Here With Me" by Mercy Me. Wow...
I'll give you the lyrics...
I long for your embrace
Every single day
To meet you in this place
And see you face to face
Will you show me?
Reveal yourself to me
Because of your mercy
I fall down on my knees
And I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender to your love
You're everywhere I go
I am not alone
You call me as your own
To know you and be known
You are holy
And I fall down on my knees
I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender to your love
I surrender to your grace
I surrender to the one who took my place
I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender:
I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender to your love
wow wow wow wow wow. Is it possible to feel closer to God by just knowing and adoring such a song? It's more then just a song. I want to feel God so much and I do when I totally surrender and let myself feel Him. I get caught up in such nonsignificant things sometimes. When hearing these words and really thinking about them, I know that nothing is worth more then knowing, loving, and sharing the warmth and love of Jesus Christ. I want to know Him so much, more and more each day, and everytime I get caught up in a silly wordly worry, I lose a chance to have Him revealed to me. The only thing I need is His beauty. I want to be lost only in His word. At this point in my life, I need to give up everything that is keeping me away from fully knowing my creator. I need to get rid of my insecurity, my dreaded self-loathing og myself and my image, the demon of depression that lives and breathes inside of me. I don't need it.
Forever, I have been trying to live with more then I need to when really it just needs to be God and me. Whoever else wants to come along for the ride is welcome, but I can't fall away again. He is way too important to not be fully captivated and amazed by. I have been trying so hard to find my self worth within a dating relationship when really the only guy right now I need to focus on is more then a saturday night date or a hand to hold at the movies. It would be nice to have, but I will let that come when it does. I don't need a boyfriend like I need Christ. I don't need physical warmth from another human being as much as I need spiritual worth from the almighty living God. This song wasn't the only thing that brought about this long, thoughtful entry. I just have been really trying to truthfully look into myself and see what I am missing, and Christ is there, but He isn't included in everything that He needs to be included in (if that makes any sense). You can't be a half way, portion, of a christian.
For a while in my life I have given God only a few factors that needed to be dealt with, but I still held on to the ones that I wanted to handle by myself. I cannot resolve anything the way I want to or truly feel fulfilled in a decision unless Christ is 150% behind it. I can't expect him to unless I let Him and I long so much for control and normalacy and sanity, but really, I know now that the only chance for control I have is to give up everything and let Him take me as I am. I have no idea how he could still want me as I am and sometimes I try to hold myself off from Him until I try and better myself and tidy up the things I am ashamed of...but how can I truly call myself redeemed unless I give myself to Him regardless of the shape I'm in. I am in it for the long hall kids. I tried a life without him, and i just couldn't do it. I need my Father in heaven to know and respect who I am and with that, nothing else should matter.
God Bless all of those who read through all of this. This has just been a really weird, yet inspirational night. Thanks to Katie for telling me about the song, and thanks to God Himself for putting up with me over the years. I am ready to surrender all.