when fking someone over, fks YOU right back.
"Love means; never having to say you're sorry."
ANONYMOUS.
It's TRUE.
You should NEVER have to say the words "I'm Sorry".
WHY?
Because there should never be a time that you do something STUPID enough to have to NEED to say "I'M SORRY."
But when you DO end up doing something stupid, you really should.
And that's why I'm here tonight..
Despite the fact that I have Uni tomorrow, and I have to take my mom to work in the morning...
I couldn't go to sleep without apologizing.
It's like the song MAD-Neyo.
"I don't wanna go to bed, mad at you,
And I don't want YOU to go to bed MAD AT ME".
I did something stupid today.. And I really wish I didn't go through with it.
I wanted to see how jealous Brian could get... So I told him I liked another guy.
When really, there is no other guy.
Pretty LOW. I know.
I wanted to see how he'd react...
Completely disregarding the fact that we had a conversation on Tuesday of his insecurities, of other boys and what not.
Not even realizing that THIS could potentially push him even further away,
and that is the LAST thing I want to happen..
And, forgetting that he HATES work on Thursdays because he can't stand the people he works with...
So I probably totally messed up.
WHY AM I SUCH A FKR..
MMMM....
Brian,
I'M SORRY.
I really am.
I never meant to hurt you, and I know I did.
I guess I thought that, because we'd been through all of this so many times, and so many times it ended up with you fkng me over, that today wouldn't be any different.
But I think I may have pushed you too far.
I really am sorry Brian.
Please don't hate me.
I know that you don't know what to believe right now, but I'm asking you to believe me...
Because I really REALLY do LOVE YOU.
And God is my witness.
I'M SORRY. ='(
<3