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QUOTE FOR THE DAY:
“Friendship always ends in love, but love never in friendship.”
Anonymous
And it’s true…
Best friends somehow always fall in love at some point (in my case anyways), but I don’t think I’ve ever heard or known of ex lovers being best friends again.
Which is probably the reason why I RUN away from falling in love most of the time. Or why I WANT to run away from love! Haha.
Why I’m SCARED.
Why I hate having friends that are BOYS.
Cause there’s always that chance that somewhere along the road you figure out that you feel something more, and most of the time-you CAN’T let yourself feel more than friendship. Because either you’re the only one feeling that way, or you both feel that way and either of you wants to make a move, or worse- the other is in a relationship.
And there’s nothing more painful than un-requited love.
But then, sometimes- what scares you the most is the fact that you both feel the same, you’ve both admitted that you do… But because of past experiences, of past relationships that have failed and ruined the friendship that they had as foundation, they refuse to consider or even think of deepening the current friendship that they have.
So this is my problem, my *babycakes* is a friend.
And I like him.
And he likes me.
But because of HIS past experiences with falling for a friend,
And MY experience/s with falling for best friends,
We don’t know what we’re gonna do.
It’s kinda like the one step forward, two steps back kinda thing.
And my feelings are annoying the shiz out of me.
Every day that we spend just getting to know each other more… The more I find myself falling harder and harder.
Which worries me because I promised myself that I wouldn’t let myself fall so hard, so fast.
That somehow, as much as I could, I would guard my heart.
And his.
I was texting him today, and he said something, something that I’ve been waiting a guy to say ever since!… See, with most guys, even after a few days or even hours!-they will have already said I LOVE YOU.
Or in someway, have used the word “LOVE” in a sentence.
He is different. And it makes me all giddy and happy inside.
It started with us talking about stuffed toys and I mentioned that I really really REALLY wanted a HUGE teddy bear- or any stuffed toy! Lol. And he was saying how he didn’t know if he could get it for me (at the moment anyways)…
Camie: “aww it’s okay, I’ll love u irregardless! Haha”
Babycakes: “can you not use the word LOVE so carelessly. I always thought of it as something special J”
AWWWWWWWW…
I’ve been waiting for sooo long. For someone to finally think of the word love as something more special than people make it out to be.
That’s awesome.
So here I am, not sure where we stand… But I’m hoping it’s going in the right direction.
Because;
All I wanna do is find my way back into LOVE. . .
<3