When I'm All Alone, That's When It Hurts The Most . . .
It's that time of year again . . .
Christmas decorations go up, because Christmas is on its way . . .
But for me, I just don't feel it yet.
This year has gone by way too fast, and I don't think I've caught up with it yet.
Don't get me wrong, I love putting up the decorations while listening to Filo Christmas songs... =]
But maybe it doesn't feel like Christmas because...
It's just the same routine every single year--
Decorations go up,
you wait patiently for Christmas day,
wishing all your wishes come true. . .
Hoping that Santa reads your letter and gets you what you want,
that when you wake up Christmas day--
The thing || person (haha) that your heart desires,
is sitting underneath (or next to) the Christmas Tree (or under the mistletoe if it's a person haha), with a ribbon saying:
"To Camille, Love Santa"
Only to find out that, either he NEVER came..
Or he got you something totally not related to, or anywhere NEAR as to what you asked for...
Hahahahaha . . . Negative Camie is back! =P
__________________
I need excitement in my life...
Every day seems to be exactly (if not even MORE boring...) than the day before.
I work too hard.
I work too much.
I don't get enough sleep because I go to sleep late, and get woken up by my agency at 5AM.
But then I ask myself why the hell I let myself work too hard, too much...
And I guess the truth is,
By me working too hard, too much....
It's easier for me to avoid problems,
hide behind my busyness..
and to forget about how messed up I'm feeling...
HAAAAAYYYYZZZ...
Lucky enough for me,
I'm going Long Driving again on Friday with
Ate, Arianne, Annie, Roseanne, Joanna, Janine, Janine's Cousin, Bobby, Mike & Tyrel =]
But this time, we'll be going in a mini bus- so we'll all be together.. =]
Suddenly, I'm scared for our safety.. Hahaha.
Because with ALL of us in the one vehicle, driving far-- it's gonna be CRAAAZZZYYY.
We're going to Torquay && 12 Apostles-- boring for me coz I've been there, done that..
But at least, it'll be fun with these losers. =)
Hahaha, I'll see Tyrel again.
__________________
I forgot to mention...
On Monday the 17th, Nov. 2008
It was Pam's Funeral...
I'd say it was UBER SAD... But it WASN'T.
I think the Family chose to make it less depressing, just the way Pam would like it.
It was just my mom & I that went- I purposefully told my agency on the Sunday that I was unavailable on the Monday because I needed to go to the Funeral.
The Mass was in Essendon (near DFO actually..) and started at 10:30AM.
My mom & I got there at 9:45AM with the help of my trusty GPS that I love so dearly.
It was PACKED.
My mom's old friends were there, along with her old & present co-workers & bosses...
Like I said before, EVERYONE LOVED PAM.
The moment I saw Adrian, I wanted to hug him there and then!
I went ... "WOOOW..."
Dang he looked good.
I saw his Dad and older sister too, she looks just like her mom- and her eyes were soo puffy.
For the Eulogy, Michael (husband), Jenny(close friend), Jennifer(daughter) & Adrian(son) spoke.
I got teary in Michael's speech,
Listened carefully in Jenny's speech,
Started crying in Jennifer's speech,
And laughed in Adrian's speech.
Adrian spoke of the good times he had with his mom, to lighten the mood- and it worked..
After the mass, we all went outside and my mom & I decided to approach Adrian...
As soon as he saw my mom he hugged her...
Then he turned to me and shook my hand, hugged me, then kissed me on the cheek =P
It felt good knowing that even though we hadn't seen each other for sooo long, he still remembered me =)
We were planning on going to Keilor Cemetery, but we decided not to because we thought the family would want time on their own.
So instead, I took my mom to Sunshine Plaza and we ate lunch there.. =)
Haaayz..
I MISS YOU GUYS...
PS:
Annie-- Sorry I haven't replied to your email, I haven't been on much =P
But I should be there on your bday, unless of course in some emergency I have to work. Hahaha..
But if I do have to work, I'll make sure it's an AM shift so I can go there afterwards =)
PPS:
Sisbo! I miss you! =P
Can you try getting off early on the 6th? So we can sing? Coz it has been 2months.. I feel as though, Fr. Frank may be annoyed..
Even though Fr. Jayjay says it's okay-- but still.
PPPS:
Emi.. hahahaha I dunno.
I miss youuuu!!
How's nandos? =P
Are you shy no more? =P
Christmas decorations go up, because Christmas is on its way . . .
But for me, I just don't feel it yet.
This year has gone by way too fast, and I don't think I've caught up with it yet.
Don't get me wrong, I love putting up the decorations while listening to Filo Christmas songs... =]
But maybe it doesn't feel like Christmas because...
It's just the same routine every single year--
Decorations go up,
you wait patiently for Christmas day,
wishing all your wishes come true. . .
Hoping that Santa reads your letter and gets you what you want,
that when you wake up Christmas day--
The thing || person (haha) that your heart desires,
is sitting underneath (or next to) the Christmas Tree (or under the mistletoe if it's a person haha), with a ribbon saying:
"To Camille, Love Santa"
Only to find out that, either he NEVER came..
Or he got you something totally not related to, or anywhere NEAR as to what you asked for...
Hahahahaha . . . Negative Camie is back! =P
__________________
I need excitement in my life...
Every day seems to be exactly (if not even MORE boring...) than the day before.
I work too hard.
I work too much.
I don't get enough sleep because I go to sleep late, and get woken up by my agency at 5AM.
But then I ask myself why the hell I let myself work too hard, too much...
And I guess the truth is,
By me working too hard, too much....
It's easier for me to avoid problems,
hide behind my busyness..
and to forget about how messed up I'm feeling...
HAAAAAYYYYZZZ...
Lucky enough for me,
I'm going Long Driving again on Friday with
Ate, Arianne, Annie, Roseanne, Joanna, Janine, Janine's Cousin, Bobby, Mike & Tyrel =]
But this time, we'll be going in a mini bus- so we'll all be together.. =]
Suddenly, I'm scared for our safety.. Hahaha.
Because with ALL of us in the one vehicle, driving far-- it's gonna be CRAAAZZZYYY.
We're going to Torquay && 12 Apostles-- boring for me coz I've been there, done that..
But at least, it'll be fun with these losers. =)
Hahaha, I'll see Tyrel again.
__________________
I forgot to mention...
On Monday the 17th, Nov. 2008
It was Pam's Funeral...
I'd say it was UBER SAD... But it WASN'T.
I think the Family chose to make it less depressing, just the way Pam would like it.
It was just my mom & I that went- I purposefully told my agency on the Sunday that I was unavailable on the Monday because I needed to go to the Funeral.
The Mass was in Essendon (near DFO actually..) and started at 10:30AM.
My mom & I got there at 9:45AM with the help of my trusty GPS that I love so dearly.
It was PACKED.
My mom's old friends were there, along with her old & present co-workers & bosses...
Like I said before, EVERYONE LOVED PAM.
The moment I saw Adrian, I wanted to hug him there and then!
I went ... "WOOOW..."
Dang he looked good.
I saw his Dad and older sister too, she looks just like her mom- and her eyes were soo puffy.
For the Eulogy, Michael (husband), Jenny(close friend), Jennifer(daughter) & Adrian(son) spoke.
I got teary in Michael's speech,
Listened carefully in Jenny's speech,
Started crying in Jennifer's speech,
And laughed in Adrian's speech.
Adrian spoke of the good times he had with his mom, to lighten the mood- and it worked..
After the mass, we all went outside and my mom & I decided to approach Adrian...
As soon as he saw my mom he hugged her...
Then he turned to me and shook my hand, hugged me, then kissed me on the cheek =P
It felt good knowing that even though we hadn't seen each other for sooo long, he still remembered me =)
We were planning on going to Keilor Cemetery, but we decided not to because we thought the family would want time on their own.
So instead, I took my mom to Sunshine Plaza and we ate lunch there.. =)
Haaayz..
I MISS YOU GUYS...
PS:
Annie-- Sorry I haven't replied to your email, I haven't been on much =P
But I should be there on your bday, unless of course in some emergency I have to work. Hahaha..
But if I do have to work, I'll make sure it's an AM shift so I can go there afterwards =)
PPS:
Sisbo! I miss you! =P
Can you try getting off early on the 6th? So we can sing? Coz it has been 2months.. I feel as though, Fr. Frank may be annoyed..
Even though Fr. Jayjay says it's okay-- but still.
PPPS:
Emi.. hahahaha I dunno.
I miss youuuu!!
How's nandos? =P
Are you shy no more? =P