spit it out 'cause i'm dying for company
bar crawl with justin (every other time, he drives down to see me, and gets terribly lost both ways, and it's hilarious, and so when he was like 'i can't drive,' my thought was--well i don't want to drive an ho--oh man, that's not even fair. i should do it! and so i did.) and a bunch of his friends in royal oak. forgot that straight boys are actually totally awesome and hilarious--especially in small doses.
they all tried to "teach me" how to play pool (i may have pretended to be more helpless than i was, but i haven't seriously touched a pool cue since high school, so i figure it was mostly the truth) and give me advice on the boy, and were suitably impressed when i ate fire at the last bar we were at. (thanks T!)
somewhere on the way, we picked up a couple of girls they knew from high school and being me, i smiled at them in my not-quite-straight girl way and we got all into discussing bellydancing (yes Seema, i talked about you, and how i managed to learn nothing) and haha. straight girls. i'm going to stop right there.
it was good times.
but i crashed a bit mentally on the way home (can i just say that i am awesome at navigating and it's not necessarily the most useful skill but it makes me feel good to be good at something, however minor) when i didn't have directions, was pretty confident that i knew how to retrace my steps, and did manage the 4 different highways thing while on the phone with Jake--but yeah. i called because i suddenly needed grounding and a sense of familiarity. dunno what i rambled on about, but there was that.
i guess stepping out has that drawback. not much of a drawback, but yeah.
sleep now. need happy comforting thoughts. the usual ones are sort of not so happy or comforting right now but hey, my mind is flexible, right? i can do anything as long as it's all in my head.
me and my admantium soul.
they all tried to "teach me" how to play pool (i may have pretended to be more helpless than i was, but i haven't seriously touched a pool cue since high school, so i figure it was mostly the truth) and give me advice on the boy, and were suitably impressed when i ate fire at the last bar we were at. (thanks T!)
somewhere on the way, we picked up a couple of girls they knew from high school and being me, i smiled at them in my not-quite-straight girl way and we got all into discussing bellydancing (yes Seema, i talked about you, and how i managed to learn nothing) and haha. straight girls. i'm going to stop right there.
it was good times.
but i crashed a bit mentally on the way home (can i just say that i am awesome at navigating and it's not necessarily the most useful skill but it makes me feel good to be good at something, however minor) when i didn't have directions, was pretty confident that i knew how to retrace my steps, and did manage the 4 different highways thing while on the phone with Jake--but yeah. i called because i suddenly needed grounding and a sense of familiarity. dunno what i rambled on about, but there was that.
i guess stepping out has that drawback. not much of a drawback, but yeah.
sleep now. need happy comforting thoughts. the usual ones are sort of not so happy or comforting right now but hey, my mind is flexible, right? i can do anything as long as it's all in my head.
me and my admantium soul.