sometimes i wish i were less of a robot. but then, wouldn't this all be harder?
head hurts. cannot go to bed; it's 5 am and must drive car back to Andy's at 8. not sure could fall asleep anyway. not sure about feelings. was never any good at those. not useful anyway. better at doing. stuck. cannot do. wait and see game. disappointed too many times to have hope. sometimes talking makes things make more sense. no one around to talk to. dad was arrested.