A challenging experience in your life and what you learned from it.
A challenging experience in your life and what you learned from it.
This might sound to some, a bit repetitive. However to me, it is quite the contrary. I Jason J Hair am a homosexual. Yes I can say it, its ok now. Not that I couldn’t before. But you see there is a significant difference between the two. I can label it; I can label it, because I can peel it off. You can’t peel of your skin. Only until one feels comfortable in their own skin does realization occur. Sure, the pressures of society, of individual communities, of lack of love I could go on, but you know where I’m going. I am delving into changes that need to occur.
I loved to hate and hated to love. By this I mean school. You might wonder, what this has to do with the personal essay. A lot. Sometimes, the weakest can be the most strong. I was severely attacked in high school. I speak of physical and verbal attacks on me. To have a horrific label of hatred, carved into the side of your leg by a group of boys, and survive is emotional. By this, I mean the word “FAG”. Not only that assault, but numerous, and schools “protection” went unnoticed. Concentration in classes; classes which I loved, I wanted to be in was not there.
Is it possible for a boy to “blossom” into a man? I personally believe anyone can blossom into whatever Monet painted dream they want, or live for. My English teacher always said to me, “ you know Jason, the caterpillar, eventually becomes the butterfly”. As I embark on the next chapter of my life. I realized that she was absolutely right. The caterpillar always, becomes a butterfly.
I say this, not for pity, and not for sympathy. To quote a discussion and actor friend and I had once. Those who are destined for great things, have to overcome past intensities. I believe that. So, my challenge, or challenges in life thus far. Was to except my whole being, to rise above and beyond. To recognize that indeed there is internal and external greatness to be achieved.
I do not fit into the stereotype of what it means to be a homosexual. For years, the only way I could escape who I was and am. Was on stage. To have the worry in character rather than in my own life. Because the majority of the time, there is a resolution. Sometimes in life it seems as though resolution, is a mirage. But at the same token, some of the best theatrical pieces ever written have no resolution what so ever. So maybe, it is not so much resolution that we are after in life. Maybe, its just recognition. To recognize and grow.
And to quote a legend in her own right, absolutely supporting the stereotype of gay men and Judy Garland. I end with a quote, a quote in which wisely chosen to adhesively piece together the topic in which I write.
“Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.” -The Fabulous Judy Garland
This might sound to some, a bit repetitive. However to me, it is quite the contrary. I Jason J Hair am a homosexual. Yes I can say it, its ok now. Not that I couldn’t before. But you see there is a significant difference between the two. I can label it; I can label it, because I can peel it off. You can’t peel of your skin. Only until one feels comfortable in their own skin does realization occur. Sure, the pressures of society, of individual communities, of lack of love I could go on, but you know where I’m going. I am delving into changes that need to occur.
I loved to hate and hated to love. By this I mean school. You might wonder, what this has to do with the personal essay. A lot. Sometimes, the weakest can be the most strong. I was severely attacked in high school. I speak of physical and verbal attacks on me. To have a horrific label of hatred, carved into the side of your leg by a group of boys, and survive is emotional. By this, I mean the word “FAG”. Not only that assault, but numerous, and schools “protection” went unnoticed. Concentration in classes; classes which I loved, I wanted to be in was not there.
Is it possible for a boy to “blossom” into a man? I personally believe anyone can blossom into whatever Monet painted dream they want, or live for. My English teacher always said to me, “ you know Jason, the caterpillar, eventually becomes the butterfly”. As I embark on the next chapter of my life. I realized that she was absolutely right. The caterpillar always, becomes a butterfly.
I say this, not for pity, and not for sympathy. To quote a discussion and actor friend and I had once. Those who are destined for great things, have to overcome past intensities. I believe that. So, my challenge, or challenges in life thus far. Was to except my whole being, to rise above and beyond. To recognize that indeed there is internal and external greatness to be achieved.
I do not fit into the stereotype of what it means to be a homosexual. For years, the only way I could escape who I was and am. Was on stage. To have the worry in character rather than in my own life. Because the majority of the time, there is a resolution. Sometimes in life it seems as though resolution, is a mirage. But at the same token, some of the best theatrical pieces ever written have no resolution what so ever. So maybe, it is not so much resolution that we are after in life. Maybe, its just recognition. To recognize and grow.
And to quote a legend in her own right, absolutely supporting the stereotype of gay men and Judy Garland. I end with a quote, a quote in which wisely chosen to adhesively piece together the topic in which I write.
“Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.” -The Fabulous Judy Garland