Embarrassed.
I don't know why, but I have no access or recollection of what I learned in Spain. Even from my literature class, I couldn't actually list who we had read when I was talking to my advisor. I couldn't even remember Machado or Unanamo, even though they're among the biggest names of that period. Or that I read a play by Lorca called Bodas de Sangre. When put on the spot, I can't pull up any names or words. When speaking about linguistics, I am afraid of the terminology I come up with because I'm never sure if it's right. It's like, my mind just doesn't want to remember. I studied. I didn't party that much, as in I never got drunk. But after the last month of study abroad, I just stopped wanting to use Spanish. I partially just wanted to forget.
I am still without a SIP, and I can't even get anywhere close to my original SIP idea because no one who would understand Spanish has studied linguistics.
I am still without a SIP, and I can't even get anywhere close to my original SIP idea because no one who would understand Spanish has studied linguistics.