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I feel so antsy. I wanna go to a club and dance and not care how lame I look. But in order to do that, I need some people to go with. At least one other person. I wanna go dance with that uber cute pseudo-punky guy I saw walking down the street with spiked up brown hair and a swagger in his step with a detailed black tshirt and loose black capri-shorts. mmmm. no bad. I've been having major problems controlling my thoughts lately. I feel like i'm reaching some critical point and i'm going to explode soon. *sigh* i havent been able to sleep all week because of it. I lie in bed and think about things.....and people....and things I want to do. Not jsut sexual mind you, although that is included. But on my list of things that are relatively easy to achieve, I want to go dance with a fine guy in a club and be one of the people laughing outside my window. and i wanna go shopping. and i want to party. i want to numb it all out. i want to be able to act like an idiot and not care. i want to be skinny and ripped and have everyone lust after me lol. i think i just need to find someone to party with. mmm. punky boys who can dance....see these thought dont give me good dreams anymore, they just keep me up :( I usually dont let it get to me. I think its just being around barr so much and barr's friends, who are in many ways similar to barr. *sigh* maybe i'll just go shopping myself tomorrow - that might be a nice thing to do. boy, i sure do come up with fun things to do dont i.