Home again, home again
I've been back home in Canada for twenty-four hours, and I'm feeling much more settled than I was on Friday. This is why decisions like "moving across the Atlantic" take a long time and are best made on the side of the Atlantic you're currently living on, not the one you're visiting and missing :-D
This is not to say that I'm never moving back to England. I'm still thinking that, eventually, it's something that may happen. Probably will happen, actually. But not for a few years. Probably not for at least ten years, I suspect, because I wouldn't do it until Mum decided she wasn't up to the regular transAtlantic crossing for her prolonged visits.
And getting back here has been lovely--sleeping in my own bed and seeing my cats and being surrounded by familiar things. Mum and I were looking at the Ikea catalogue last night and I realised that I'm still excited about getting the apartment in 2018, so moving back to England definitely can't happen for a few years yet.
For the first time, though, I'm letting myself admit that Canada might not be my always and forever. I'm not afraid to think that. It's a thing I wasn't even letting myself think before.
And now, I'm going to put that all aside and concentrate on living my best life here for a while. Tomorrow I go back to work and find out all the things that went terribly wrong while I was gone. This evening, I plan to relax and prolong the sense of being on holiday for as long as I can 😁
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This is not to say that I'm never moving back to England. I'm still thinking that, eventually, it's something that may happen. Probably will happen, actually. But not for a few years. Probably not for at least ten years, I suspect, because I wouldn't do it until Mum decided she wasn't up to the regular transAtlantic crossing for her prolonged visits.
And getting back here has been lovely--sleeping in my own bed and seeing my cats and being surrounded by familiar things. Mum and I were looking at the Ikea catalogue last night and I realised that I'm still excited about getting the apartment in 2018, so moving back to England definitely can't happen for a few years yet.
For the first time, though, I'm letting myself admit that Canada might not be my always and forever. I'm not afraid to think that. It's a thing I wasn't even letting myself think before.
And now, I'm going to put that all aside and concentrate on living my best life here for a while. Tomorrow I go back to work and find out all the things that went terribly wrong while I was gone. This evening, I plan to relax and prolong the sense of being on holiday for as long as I can 😁
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