Change and I are not the best of friends-Me needing a rant
It seems like lately a lot of changes are happening in my life whether I want them to happen or not. I'm rather frustrated about it because you see...I'm a creature of habit. I like routine. It's very difficult for me, to a degree, to change the big things in my life. With out it, I feel lost.
And then there are the events in the past few days. I made the revelation that I am basically a single woman and that really hurt me more than anything else. I have heard absolutely nothing from Darren for the past 3 months..and prior to the inevitable death of his grandmother and his father...I hadn't heard from him about 3 months and totaling approximately 6 months with out so much as a peep from him. It has seems that Darren has made the choice not to contact me. Evidently a simple four word txt/email/im/ phone call was too (insert word of choice here) for him to show some consideration and tell me "Still sick: Love you". I mean, I am not expecting him to send me this every day. Once every week to two weeks would be sufficiant for me.
I have asked him on several occasions not to keep me in the dark about what's going on with him. The silence itself drives me crazy. It would be one thing if we were in the same state/town, but we're seperated by me living in Illinois and he in Georgia. Communication is all we have.
It hurts me to think that he has not chosen to contact me despite me urging him to on multiple occasions. Hell, other friends have tried to as well. I just could not handle it anymore. I HAVE NEEDS TOO, YOU KNOW! Obviously, he really didn't care about what my needs were. I told him what I needed. Either he couldn't give or wouldn't and I discovered those weren't just wants...they were things I actually need. A person can only go so far on silence. I am surprised I held on as long as I did. A part of me hopes for him to change.
So, I am hurt, pissed, lost, frustrated, and alone.
List of things I NEED in a mate:
1> High Intellegence
2> God fearing man = Christian
3> Attentive to my needs
4> Doting.
5> Loving
6> Someone I can say anything to.
7> Fun
8> Sense of humor
9> Non-drinker/ non smoker
10> Has a job
11> Has own interests, but shares of few of mine
12> giving to me and others.
13> loves his family, my family, and our possible family
14> Communicates with me!
15> Supportive
I'm not asking for much am I?
S'Eleene Paris
And then there are the events in the past few days. I made the revelation that I am basically a single woman and that really hurt me more than anything else. I have heard absolutely nothing from Darren for the past 3 months..and prior to the inevitable death of his grandmother and his father...I hadn't heard from him about 3 months and totaling approximately 6 months with out so much as a peep from him. It has seems that Darren has made the choice not to contact me. Evidently a simple four word txt/email/im/ phone call was too (insert word of choice here) for him to show some consideration and tell me "Still sick: Love you". I mean, I am not expecting him to send me this every day. Once every week to two weeks would be sufficiant for me.
I have asked him on several occasions not to keep me in the dark about what's going on with him. The silence itself drives me crazy. It would be one thing if we were in the same state/town, but we're seperated by me living in Illinois and he in Georgia. Communication is all we have.
It hurts me to think that he has not chosen to contact me despite me urging him to on multiple occasions. Hell, other friends have tried to as well. I just could not handle it anymore. I HAVE NEEDS TOO, YOU KNOW! Obviously, he really didn't care about what my needs were. I told him what I needed. Either he couldn't give or wouldn't and I discovered those weren't just wants...they were things I actually need. A person can only go so far on silence. I am surprised I held on as long as I did. A part of me hopes for him to change.
So, I am hurt, pissed, lost, frustrated, and alone.
List of things I NEED in a mate:
1> High Intellegence
2> God fearing man = Christian
3> Attentive to my needs
4> Doting.
5> Loving
6> Someone I can say anything to.
7> Fun
8> Sense of humor
9> Non-drinker/ non smoker
10> Has a job
11> Has own interests, but shares of few of mine
12> giving to me and others.
13> loves his family, my family, and our possible family
14> Communicates with me!
15> Supportive
I'm not asking for much am I?
S'Eleene Paris