Still Here
So, I've had a busy holiday season, who hasn't? After Christmas and before New year we had a visit from my Oregon sister and her sister-in-law, Husb's sister. It was a great visit but short and my house was voted the hang out. I really love having all the family around. It feels good to be part of a big family. My kids showed up for some of the visit and they were very social.
It is a strange thing to be watching your grown children in a social setting, it is kind of surreal. It's like you know them intimately but you don't know them at all. I found my self wondering when did they get so smart, so confident, so funny, so not like I thought they'd be? I love who my kids are but when they are small you really can't imagine the adult product. It really makes you stop and think about how much influence a parent really has on the child. I guess it makes me wish I had thought more about who they are and less about who I wanted them to be. I was nothing of a control freak or anything like that but I think I might have enjoyed parenting more if I'd felt less responsibility for everything and they would have felt more accepted and believed in.
Whenever I hear someone say they don't want kids I think it sad. Without kids I don't even like to think of who I'd have turned out to be.
I'm off to face the after Christmas budget, wish me luck.
It is a strange thing to be watching your grown children in a social setting, it is kind of surreal. It's like you know them intimately but you don't know them at all. I found my self wondering when did they get so smart, so confident, so funny, so not like I thought they'd be? I love who my kids are but when they are small you really can't imagine the adult product. It really makes you stop and think about how much influence a parent really has on the child. I guess it makes me wish I had thought more about who they are and less about who I wanted them to be. I was nothing of a control freak or anything like that but I think I might have enjoyed parenting more if I'd felt less responsibility for everything and they would have felt more accepted and believed in.
Whenever I hear someone say they don't want kids I think it sad. Without kids I don't even like to think of who I'd have turned out to be.
I'm off to face the after Christmas budget, wish me luck.