2007 update
well well...
My life has changed a lot, it's really for me to even grasp at where to start.
Last year I ended my relationship with Jeremiah, which i should have done much much earlier, and I met Ted in April of '06. Possibly the best person who has ever walked into my life, we will soon have our one year anniversary but it feels like we've been together for decades. I really feel like he makes me want to be a better person, if it wasn't for him i don't think i would have gone back to school, he makes me strive to do better. i really truly love him for him and he makes me love my faults and realize that those faults aren't really faults but just me being normal. i no longer feel awkward or depressed, and i have not been cutting anymore. im really trying to be happy for who i am. i've been going to school at PC and i really do enjoy it, my major is fashion design but i would really like to prosue a career in textiles. I'm still working at the afterschool program and its not as fun as it used to be but it's still enjoyable for the most part. Now that i've been writing this i realize my life is still pretty boring but at least i'm happy now.