I've been dying
I stood by my views and won. So why do I still feel really rotten?
It's not my way to feel sorry for the dead, and even less so to feel sorry for the living. So I rejected the demand that I attend my Aunt's service. She died of old age and she had a really good run. She was a cool old lady, but I am not sorry to see her go. I'm glad. She was really suffering. And now she's not.
I didn't go because 1) I don't do well in enclosed spaces where everyone is upset. 2) I don't have the same views on death as most other people and that tends to upset people. 3) I tend to smile, giggle, and laugh to myself when I get nervous, and I get nervous at funerals, and 4) My family do not like me much anyway.
It's one thing to go to the service of someone you knew very well, and I don't even like to do that (it's happened twice, and one of them, I kept myself very hidden), and it's another to be forced to go to the service of someone you hardly knew for "moral support to the family." And another thing to be forced to attend the service of someone for moral support of the family that you also aren't familiar with.
I like to celebrate lives, not mourn deaths.
It's not my way to feel sorry for the dead, and even less so to feel sorry for the living. So I rejected the demand that I attend my Aunt's service. She died of old age and she had a really good run. She was a cool old lady, but I am not sorry to see her go. I'm glad. She was really suffering. And now she's not.
I didn't go because 1) I don't do well in enclosed spaces where everyone is upset. 2) I don't have the same views on death as most other people and that tends to upset people. 3) I tend to smile, giggle, and laugh to myself when I get nervous, and I get nervous at funerals, and 4) My family do not like me much anyway.
It's one thing to go to the service of someone you knew very well, and I don't even like to do that (it's happened twice, and one of them, I kept myself very hidden), and it's another to be forced to go to the service of someone you hardly knew for "moral support to the family." And another thing to be forced to attend the service of someone for moral support of the family that you also aren't familiar with.
I like to celebrate lives, not mourn deaths.