I feel so helpless and it aint funny cuz deep down inside I know you're never gunna love me.....
So I have about 5 minutes to write a blog. So here it is. I literally spent the whole day yesterday with Chris. I got up, got ready, ate breakfast and was on my way for his house. I knew he would need a friend right now, seeing as everything he's beem going through in the past few days. Again, i'm not gunna give details out of respect for him. I brought over movies. We watched the Princess Bride and the Labirynth. I practically had to force him to watch them but he ended up liking both of them. See? My taste isn't so terrible, now is it? Somehow, I knew however long I dogded it, the question of "us" was inevitable to come up. Eventually we decided to be together. I realli did mean that I wanted to work on our friendship before this, but I was realli given no choice. He knew I wanted it to be more, even though I insisted on building up our friendship first. Yes, I am happy but he knows I like someone else. The fact that he's not worried about it scares me. I know I shouldn't be liking someone else if I realli love him. You have to understand though, he hurtme realli badly. My heart is sort of cold and numb to him, it's just starting to warm back up right now. So yeah, I like someone else but it's not that serious and it's probablly gunna go nowhere anyways. I owe Justin the biggest apology ever though. For everything I put him through. I'm truly sorri but I had to follow my heart rather than lying to you. Had lunch with Jack, Fredo, Dell, Jeff and a bunch of other people today. Anyways, i'm off to work. Till tommorow.....