Goodbye everybody, i've got to go, gotta leave you all behind and face the truth.....

[sekzigoddess87]

Today just sucked. I dressed in all black. It was to symbolize that you can't always be with the person you love on Valentine's Day. Whether that be you boyfriend/girlfriend who's in a different state or country, the person you love who just doesn't want to be with you or broke up with you, the person you love not even knowing you love them, or if the person you love hasn't even come into your life yet. It's a great holiday for happy couples who see each other everyday but otherwise, it's just a reminder or how lonely you are and how much you miss the person you can't be with it. I know it's a Hallmark holiday and it's not a big deal, but it is to me. I just wanted today to be special and it all got screwed up. My day was pretty boring, so i'm not even going to bother writing about it. All you need to know is that i'm very very upset. See, LAST SATURDAY, not the one that just past, the one two weeks ago, I sent Justin his package for 2-day delivery. I was pissed to find out that he still hasn't gotten it. I'm going to get realli upset if they don't even send it back to me. There was some expensive stuff in there. I invested a lot of time and money into it and i'm going to be extremely upset if it doesn't get to him. To top it all off, I didn't get anything from him either. I know i'll probablly recieve it in a few days but that's not the point. I just wanted today to be great and instead, it was probablly the worst Valentine's Day of my life. I don't blame any of this on Justin at all, I blame on the damn US Postal Service. Damn all of you, (except Chris. Hehe.) I'm just so damn upset. Blah blah I know it's only material things and we still lover each other and shit. Yeah, i've heard it all. It just realli upsets me. I just don't want to do this anymore. I'm sick of being in this depression. I'm sick of crying every day and writing all these depressing song lyrics and poems as my only outlet. I write a blog every day because I find it to be very theraputic (and because I love to talk about myself.) I just don't want to do this anymore.....any of it.....i'm done with all of it and i'm not turning back.....

::Wednesday::

Class 11-4:30.
CR Orientation & first shift 5-10:30.

::Thursday::

Class 9:30-11/1:40-3

::Friday::

Class 11:25-2:35.
Working 4-10:30.

::Saturday::

Working 1-6.

::Sunday::

Church (and Kyle BETTER be there. Haha.)
Bio-Feedback concert?