Showing my true colors
I've been thought of as nothing but a druggy, then when i couldn't do drugs, i turned into an alcoholic. Well i don't like those labels, but i'm starting to see myself that i do depend on drugs to deal with life. And that is the coward way to do it. The only thing i've ever spent my money on is drugs, drugs and some alcohol, but i need to turn it around. I'm doing so good right now with drug court and if i slip then it will just prolong my time in this program. If i'm trying to turn my life around, binge drinking is not going to help it all. I've heard everything that people have told me, but i guess i just chose not to hear it cause denail works for me. But only i can change my destiny, and i want to have a descent future for myself, and drugs is not the way i'm gonna get there. Yeah i'm gonna smoke when i get off drug court but i pray i won't go back to my old ways.
But i'm planning something big, well not big but its a surprise. I've already got it all planned out, but i need the money. So i need a job, 2morrow i'm getting a job.
And maybe this will be my only time allowed to spend the night out w/o my mother. Tight as Fuck.....
But i'm planning something big, well not big but its a surprise. I've already got it all planned out, but i need the money. So i need a job, 2morrow i'm getting a job.
And maybe this will be my only time allowed to spend the night out w/o my mother. Tight as Fuck.....