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Hii guiseee.
Long time no post.
I'll get better at this I swear, tubmlr has just taken over my life.
I wish this could be a somewhat happy post, so I will try to make it that way.
I dont really know how to start this, but life has been getting harder for me.
My self confidence is going down, like WAYYY down and I dont really know what to do with myself.
I feel like Im loosing friends, no one talks to me anymore. I have four friends on AIM and two of them are the same person.
Every.Single.Person. In my school pisses me off, except for Tori. Its getting rough to live with everyone and all the drama involved. I DESPISE drama, yet everyone comes to me to tell me who got in trouble for what or whos doing what drug or whos dating/fucking/breaking up with whoever.
stuff that doesnt even involve me. orzzz;;
Normally on the weekend I would be out doing things like lazer tag or going to the library or good will but Im just sitting here in bed not moving.
Maybe its cause Im sick but I dont really know.
I think I just miss having friends that have the same interests as me. Yeah I have Gabby and Dani but everyone else is dissapearing. I cant stand it.
I dont have a single friend that lives near my house. So when I do get to go home, I always spend time by myself, in my room, with nothing to do. Its better than being at school on the weekends though.
Ive just been overall sad lately, and I just hide it because I know Im stronger than this. But maybe Im not...?
I dont know.
Im so confused.