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[sekhmet20]

Things are going pretty good. This is the first time I've had hours of unfilled time. I feels a little weird but good. My stomach feels kind of bad, which isn't fun and is probably hindering my productiveness. But life is going pretty well. My friend John is now my boyfriend John...*insert lots of yay and happiness* I'm still boycotting this place a bit but I guess the occasional update isn't too evil. Other than that, Spring Break was special. My grandmother is awesome and my mother is...unique. I'm happy to be back in Flagstaff. I love my family but I think Easter will be sooner than I really want to give up more of my time. I'm torn, because they're all so lonely and they love me to spend time with them ( and I feel the same way, often) but I wish I didn't feel like I had to go home so much. I wish I didn't feel so responsible for my grandfather being happy. I wish I could help him...and I think spending time does help but it's like, all the things he filled his life with depended on people that are no longer around or living. I need to just let it go and spend lots of time when I visit. It's hard to watch him trying to cope and it makes me feel so guilty when I hear that he's a lot happier when I'm around.
I need to study and work on my research paper but I think I need to buy a new stomach off of ebay first. I might go lay down for a bit. But school is fine, John is good, and I'm going on a horn studio camping trip on saturday (as well as a date on Friday with John). So yay life...boo to stomachs. Peace Out.