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MY HEART IS BROKEN IN TWO for the first time. For real.
Don`t forget about us. Please.
I don`t know it if was love. I don`t even know why i`m trippin` so much babe. I can`t help the way I feel. Trust me if I did I’d do something about this shit im in. I can only control how I handle this situation. And even from there it still isn’t easy at all. I miss you so much I don’t think you understand. I know I made a mistake. But in this case we both can see our faults. We can comfort each other. I can be there for you. I promise I will be. Baby you’re the missing piece and I know that now for sure. I can’t imagine myself with any other boy. But if you feel this is the way things should settle down as I just hope we can be friends. I need you in my life. I’m still unsure though. I think it would hurt so much just to be…friends. It seems so not like us. Babe please tell me this is the way things are suppose to be. I want you I need you. Like I said I can’t imagine myself with anyone else. No one else compares to you. We barely know each other that may be true. But right now it doesn’t seem to matter. You are the only one who fits me in his arms so well. You know how to hold me. You know how to take away my breath. You know how to hold my hand look me in the eye. You know how to give me butterflies. Its so hard to talk to you boy. You make things so difficult for me. I need you so bad. Every time you talk to me I feel like it’s a blessing. Whenever I see you smile I want to melt. I want to be the water you swim in. and fill in every place of your body because I miss you so much. Its crazy baby when I sit next to you babe. we are so close you know. But we don’t touch we barely touch baby. I craze to stroke the threads of hair covering your scalp. I need you I can’t say that enough that’s the only thing that runs through my head. Every time I see you babe I wish you’d stare right back at me. I miss the times I would randomly kiss you, you loved it so much baby don’t try to ignore that because you damn right you loved that shit. Baby please. Don’t leave me. I’ll do whatever it takes to get back with you. Please believe me. Give me another chance to prove to you how sincere I am. I know this may not even sound like me but baby it is. I know there are so many other girls out there way better than me, no doubt. But I bet you known of them will treat you how I would. Babe we have so much potential to be something so great. Don’t let it slip like I did. Babe… oh baby… please believe me. I need you… I need someone like you. You you you… I hope you get it. I hope you don’t think I’m fronting. Because I’m not and I would never about something like this. I want to talk to you. But I don’t even know if you will read this crap. Man baby. I made a mistake.
Always. Seka
original date: november 18, 2005