Glistening Days
Another glistening summer day gone by… yet it’s not all that its cracked up to be. There are much chaotic emotions floating amongst my mind and in my heart. I come to think if the words I have promised would come to me n my future to taunt me as I helplessly lay upon the wooden floor of the house I don’t have. My emotion is held within the bars that separate me from the world. Again I find myself upon a lonely star …by myself. Worried, desperately…trying to find if I really did do something wrong… I hope I don’t regret what I did in the past… my begotten words seemed so perfect at the time… I forgot about all the “other” times. All the times you hurt me… as I waited by the phone…dreaming…wishing… hoping you hadn’t forgotten… wondering if you really are just lazy… or if its because… cuz you just really don’t care… and feel as if im jus here. That I wont go away… even you at this time of my desperation cause some of the hurt and pain that is weighting down my heart… the majority of people just don’t seem to care. It makes my mind compose an agreement …a settlement.. a arrangement that why should I … how can I run to all the ones who’ve I’ve counted on when they are what I will be talking about. I don’t want them to feel as though im a dramaqueen….dont want them to believe im so superficial or sentimental… although I am… I wish I didn’t have to care what people thought of me. I wish I didn’t… but I do. I must and will worry because I have so many priorities that hold to much of a significance to me that I cant bare to think of letting go.
It’s amazing how people you barely know can help you release so much about yourself.
<3 LP