it's always the same.
Things are going well and I'm happy, yet I'm a war of head vs. heart. I'm at the best I've ever been - weight wise, health wise, heart wise - yet I'm still fighting with myself and putting myself down.
I'm number 12 out of 276 in the senior class. I quit my job because I was tired of being miserable. I hate having too much free time and waking up alone. I'm exhausted 24/7. I've had a headache every day for the past 7 days, and nothing can stop them. I am loving and learning. I'm still not content.
Where the Wild Things Are was the best movie I have seen in a very long time. By the end it had me crying. "I'll eat you up, I love you so."
Homecoming is a week from today. My dress is amazing and makes me feel amazing. I'm being a peacock for Halloween. I want to dye my hair red and cut it even shorter. I want to be tan and get more tattoos.
I want a million things, but I am happy with what I have.