Sunday at Seven
i'm not sure if i should be writing about this here. i had the most traumatic experience of my life thus far last sunday evening. sparing some of the gory details, i was the first on scene of a traffic accident: a man was hit by a car. i supported his neck and helped roll him on his side to try to prevent him from choking on his blood. as one of two witnesses, i recieved a call yesterday from the man's son, thomas. miloslav "milo" died on the way to the hospital. he was 59 years old,"strong as an ox and just as stubborn", married, polish. he had at least one child. pray for his family if you remember to.
the more i talk about this the less it bothers my every day life. i had a panic attack in the car yesterday, and i was very glad that i wasnt driving. talking to "tommy" helped me feel better about the whole situation. i was asked to come to the funeral so the family can meet me, and apparently the other witness wants to talk to me about what happened, so there will be more emotional trauma coming up shortly. i want people to know so they understand if i happen to freak out...i try generally to be a strong person, but holding this inside of me will only make it worse. i just want it to be resolved, and i know that there can't be any set timeline for that.
i love everyone so much, and i suppose this has made certain feelings swell, especially bonds with friends and family. i'm glad the lord was able to work through me, even if he didnt live, because i know for certain that i didnt do it on my own.
i guess i'm supposed to have some type of mind-boggling revelation right about now, but i dont. i'm still me.
the more i talk about this the less it bothers my every day life. i had a panic attack in the car yesterday, and i was very glad that i wasnt driving. talking to "tommy" helped me feel better about the whole situation. i was asked to come to the funeral so the family can meet me, and apparently the other witness wants to talk to me about what happened, so there will be more emotional trauma coming up shortly. i want people to know so they understand if i happen to freak out...i try generally to be a strong person, but holding this inside of me will only make it worse. i just want it to be resolved, and i know that there can't be any set timeline for that.
i love everyone so much, and i suppose this has made certain feelings swell, especially bonds with friends and family. i'm glad the lord was able to work through me, even if he didnt live, because i know for certain that i didnt do it on my own.
i guess i'm supposed to have some type of mind-boggling revelation right about now, but i dont. i'm still me.