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So this is my first post in a long time but it is needed. I keep talking to my friend Kyle whom I have known for going on nine years and his life keeps going down the tube. He has totally forsaken God and is stuck in a self-perpetuating cycle of drugs, sex, and alcohol. Everytime I talk to him, my hearts breaks all over again because I love him so much and I so deperately want to see him restored. I want him to know and feel what I feel with God (and so much more) and it's really starting to wear on me. I would do anything for him and it stings everytime I start talking about God and he gives a verbal backhand to it. I am really frustrated because I feel like there is notying I can do about and I know God has to make the change but it's just difficult. *sigh* I don't know what more I can do. I guess ity's in God's hands but it's like "God, why do things keep getting worse?" I am so scared because I know God is going to humble and it's going to hurt and I really would him rather change without that. AHHH!!! I don't know.