In the last 24 hours I have had several things happen that could be called insane. The most recent of all of them is that I think I am falling for a red horned, red eyed, green demon
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Not hungry my little green patooty. She most certainly was too hungry and I didn't need to read her to know it; her tummy tum did all the talking for her.
There was a ruckus workin' up somewhere down the hall. Some big to do in the lobby no doubt, but as long as no one was screaming in terror it was pretty much safe to say it had nothing to do with us. And of course, as if my thinking it had made it happen, Cait yelled, stormed up the stairs, and slammed her door. Right on que sugar bear but big sis here isn't getting off that easy.
"I should go check on her."
Her and I both knew that wasn't necessary. Whatever was stirring Cait's need to scream and slam doors wasn't exactly life or death and I was pretty sure the little tyke could handle it on her own...for now. I moved in front of Angelina and refused to let the precious thing out the door before I heard it straight from her perfectly full lips what in the heck was going on here between us. I gave her a look that said it all.
"If I get close to you, you will end up dead like everyone else. I can't allow that."
That was it? That was what this whole personality change was about? I shook my head and put my hands on her shoulders adding a little shake for dramatic enhancement.
"Snap out of it Angie dear. This is not home and I am not in danger by being close to you. Look.." I said glancing from one hand to the other. "complete contact and I'm still breathing."
I tried to smile. I knew it wasn't what she meant but I needed to say something in hopes of breaking this completely awkward tension between me and the beautiful beauty in front of me.
I could tell that he wasn't believing a word I was saying and I could also tell, he wasn't going to let me just run. Ok, so he is smarter than I give him credit for, and also take some from me because I am not the escape artist I thought I was.
"You are really not going to let me leave are you?" I ask as I look at him hopefully. "And how do you know that you won't be hurt because of me. David lives in LA, he can get to anyone he wants to anytime he wants to. He will hurt you if he knows you matter to me." I explain. "I have to protect you from that."
She was scared. I could feel it as strongly as if it were my own fear. But, if there was anything I had learned from hangin' around these folks it was that you couldn't let fear rule your life. If you did, you were bound to go mad and I wasn't about to sit by and watch that happen to my dear sweetie Angelina.
Because that's what she was now, my sweet Angelina because let's face it here kiddie, I was quickly falling for the little vixen. And maybe, just maybe, she was the one who needed protecting. Not just from David, but from herself as well.
"Oh, you can leave but I'm asking, no begging, you not to. Your not alone here sugar plum. If, and I use the word if strongly, David comes here, we'll...all of us...will take care of it. Promise. No more worries." I said, cupping her cheeks with my hands and looking down into those amazing eyes of hers.
Ok this just wasn't fair. He knew how to get to me, knew what I was feeling and wi th him it is much worse than it is with Cait. I mean with my sister it doesn't bother me because I can tell her to bug off, but with Lorne...well I can't be hateful. "You are an evil evil man you know that right?" I ask as I esign myself to having to calm down. "However, you don't know what he is capable of." I add.
With a deep breath I lean forward, my body pressing against his, my head resting on his shoulder. "You die, I will bring you back just to kick your ass ok?" I warn as I cling to him. I know he could feel my body trembling, this was something I hated, he could not only sense my emotions but he was paying witness to them now.
"I can't lose anyone else." I whisper barely audible just before moving to look into his eyes. There was something about him, something that made me long to believe his word, even though I know for a fact it isn't true...no matter what he thinks. Doesn't matter though, before I could stop myself I had leaned in, my lips press against his, and though it was nothing special I was kissing him. Nothing mattered anymore, not that David could kill him in any moment, not that Lorne was a demon, nothing.
A minute ago she tried to make a quick get away and now she try to steal a kiss. Not only trying but succeeding. I was powerless against that sugary sweet softness. I held her trembling body close to mine, everything forgotten (including the army sized take out order that was on it's way) and kissed her back.
Maybe she was right. Maybe I was asking for it by getting involved with her and maybe her ex would come after us but right at this very moment, I didn't care. I didn't care if he brought the entire staff of Wolfram and Hart as protection. Right now, all I cared about was this beautiful little vixen in my arms.
It was now my turn to tremble as she pulled away from me.
"Well now, that's more like it." I said with a smile that could have split my face in two. I've already died I thought. Died and gone to heaven.
I rest my head on his shoulder. "Remember what I said! I am holding to that, you die I bring you back to kill you myself." I remind him as I finally pull away from him.
With that I returned to my chair, curling my agile body up as much as I could. I didn't know how to tell him how much I liked him, not as if he didn't already know that, but still, I couldn't find a way to just say it. I wish this was all easier, but it just isn't.
There was a ruckus workin' up somewhere down the hall. Some big to do in the lobby no doubt, but as long as no one was screaming in terror it was pretty much safe to say it had nothing to do with us. And of course, as if my thinking it had made it happen, Cait yelled, stormed up the stairs, and slammed her door. Right on que sugar bear but big sis here isn't getting off that easy.
"I should go check on her."
Her and I both knew that wasn't necessary. Whatever was stirring Cait's need to scream and slam doors wasn't exactly life or death and I was pretty sure the little tyke could handle it on her own...for now. I moved in front of Angelina and refused to let the precious thing out the door before I heard it straight from her perfectly full lips what in the heck was going on here between us. I gave her a look that said it all.
"If I get close to you, you will end up dead like everyone else. I can't allow that."
That was it? That was what this whole personality change was about? I shook my head and put my hands on her shoulders adding a little shake for dramatic enhancement.
"Snap out of it Angie dear. This is not home and I am not in danger by being close to you. Look.." I said glancing from one hand to the other. "complete contact and I'm still breathing."
I tried to smile. I knew it wasn't what she meant but I needed to say something in hopes of breaking this completely awkward tension between me and the beautiful beauty in front of me.
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"You are really not going to let me leave are you?" I ask as I look at him hopefully. "And how do you know that you won't be hurt because of me. David lives in LA, he can get to anyone he wants to anytime he wants to. He will hurt you if he knows you matter to me." I explain. "I have to protect you from that."
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Because that's what she was now, my sweet Angelina because let's face it here kiddie, I was quickly falling for the little vixen. And maybe, just maybe, she was the one who needed protecting. Not just from David, but from herself as well.
"Oh, you can leave but I'm asking, no begging, you not to. Your not alone here sugar plum. If, and I use the word if strongly, David comes here, we'll...all of us...will take care of it. Promise. No more worries." I said, cupping her cheeks with my hands and looking down into those amazing eyes of hers.
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With a deep breath I lean forward, my body pressing against his, my head resting on his shoulder. "You die, I will bring you back just to kick your ass ok?" I warn as I cling to him. I know he could feel my body trembling, this was something I hated, he could not only sense my emotions but he was paying witness to them now.
"I can't lose anyone else." I whisper barely audible just before moving to look into his eyes. There was something about him, something that made me long to believe his word, even though I know for a fact it isn't true...no matter what he thinks. Doesn't matter though, before I could stop myself I had leaned in, my lips press against his, and though it was nothing special I was kissing him. Nothing mattered anymore, not that David could kill him in any moment, not that Lorne was a demon, nothing.
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A minute ago she tried to make a quick get away and now she try to steal a kiss. Not only trying but succeeding. I was powerless against that sugary sweet softness. I held her trembling body close to mine, everything forgotten (including the army sized take out order that was on it's way) and kissed her back.
Maybe she was right. Maybe I was asking for it by getting involved with her and maybe her ex would come after us but right at this very moment, I didn't care. I didn't care if he brought the entire staff of Wolfram and Hart as protection. Right now, all I cared about was this beautiful little vixen in my arms.
It was now my turn to tremble as she pulled away from me.
"Well now, that's more like it." I said with a smile that could have split my face in two. I've already died I thought. Died and gone to heaven.
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With that I returned to my chair, curling my agile body up as much as I could. I didn't know how to tell him how much I liked him, not as if he didn't already know that, but still, I couldn't find a way to just say it. I wish this was all easier, but it just isn't.
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