Woo...I don't like this. x_X
It's been for damn ever since I wrote in here. So I figured I'd update.
There's this girl I like alot. But then again I'm not single, so it's tough. I can't break hearts, I hate doing that. But then again, I can't stand being with the girl I am with right now. It also sucks because I have to go in private to smoke, just because my mother's friends are in town. I do appreciate it though, atleast she is entertained and is socializing (God forbid her to go do something with her life). Also, I'm pretty pleased with my forum right now. It's coming along great now, it has a splash page and a gallery on it. It's more professional, or so I think anyway. I've worked really hard, and so has everyone else, so hopefully it'll pay off with activity x_X. I seriously need a life. I sit at the computer and wait for anyone to come online to chat with. I do feel as if I annoy everyone and everything I talk to... I'm trying to change my ways, and my lifestyle, but it's too damn hard. I'm saddened by the fact that I rely on cigarettes to handle my problems, but it's better than a knife. I'm going to quit soon, though;as I don't have the funds to support it. I really do hate whining and complaining online, but atleast it gets it out. I hate the fact that this whole thing is a pity-post. >>'' Oh! Also, I came out to my dad that I am bi. I figured, I'm not going to live my life in secrecy, and dammit, if I want to grab a dude's ass, I'm damn well to do it. He doesn't want anything to do with me now as well. >>' I just... don't know what to do. I'm so curious and easily attracted to guys, I have to physically stop myself by walking away. It's hard. And it sucks. x_X' I'm trying to get used to it, but still it's the fear of the fact that I'll walk down the hallways in school, having to listen to the names people call me. I know I should pay no mind to it, but I'm the kind of guy who takes things to heart. I'm so sick of having 950837509875409493 billion things wrong with me. I need to embrace them as qualities, but still, it's hard when people tell you over and over again that you're so wrong. That everything's wrong.
Man.... x.X
There's this girl I like alot. But then again I'm not single, so it's tough. I can't break hearts, I hate doing that. But then again, I can't stand being with the girl I am with right now. It also sucks because I have to go in private to smoke, just because my mother's friends are in town. I do appreciate it though, atleast she is entertained and is socializing (God forbid her to go do something with her life). Also, I'm pretty pleased with my forum right now. It's coming along great now, it has a splash page and a gallery on it. It's more professional, or so I think anyway. I've worked really hard, and so has everyone else, so hopefully it'll pay off with activity x_X. I seriously need a life. I sit at the computer and wait for anyone to come online to chat with. I do feel as if I annoy everyone and everything I talk to... I'm trying to change my ways, and my lifestyle, but it's too damn hard. I'm saddened by the fact that I rely on cigarettes to handle my problems, but it's better than a knife. I'm going to quit soon, though;as I don't have the funds to support it. I really do hate whining and complaining online, but atleast it gets it out. I hate the fact that this whole thing is a pity-post. >>'' Oh! Also, I came out to my dad that I am bi. I figured, I'm not going to live my life in secrecy, and dammit, if I want to grab a dude's ass, I'm damn well to do it. He doesn't want anything to do with me now as well. >>' I just... don't know what to do. I'm so curious and easily attracted to guys, I have to physically stop myself by walking away. It's hard. And it sucks. x_X' I'm trying to get used to it, but still it's the fear of the fact that I'll walk down the hallways in school, having to listen to the names people call me. I know I should pay no mind to it, but I'm the kind of guy who takes things to heart. I'm so sick of having 950837509875409493 billion things wrong with me. I need to embrace them as qualities, but still, it's hard when people tell you over and over again that you're so wrong. That everything's wrong.
Man.... x.X