emo
Being fought over may be nice, nasty, or both. In the end neither the winning nor losing party cares about the prize, it's the thrill of winning that is sought after. So the trophy, plastic or gold, is loved less and less each day after the conquest.
I think I might finish the CAS portfolio on time. I also think I might ask Godsey if I can take the AP Spanish test, because I suck.
I'm pretty emo right now. I guess that might be good otherwise I wouldn't be updating. My aunt came over and we went to Las Vegas. I met a grand uncle who seems really cool and has a daughter only four years older than me. The amount of food that went into my mouth is obscene, so I probably gained a few million pounds. I hate Las Vegas to be honest, but my aunt made it bearable. Hopefully we will go on a longer trip over the summer.
The UCLA vs UC Berkeley debate still rages, I might go to CAL day on the 18th. I hope I go alone, I can't stand traveling with my dad. I hate how my dad goes on and on about how having kids was the worst thing to happen in his life. I understand that I'm a huge burden, but it's annoying to have to hear that every fucking day of my life. It's better than the alternative though. Baby Pishi essentially told him to stfu about it, even if it was around his children. I guess being unconditionally honest is a good trait, but it still makes me feel like shit. I shouldn't feel like shit though, because I could have turned out so much worse. It's probably pure luck that I'm in the position I am right now: deciding between a million awesome schools and planning for my future, something I didn't think I'd actually have a few years ago.
I guess I've learned that accomplishment doesn't change where you stand with the people you care about. I haven't been treated any differently for turning my grades around. I have learned that accomplishment matters to strangers and acquaintances, people who you have yet to develop a real relationship with. Anyway, the moral of my life is that I shouldn't bother trying to please any other than myself, because they won't really care anyway. Still, I'm trying to get into premed programs, so I guess I'm pretty stupid since I don't follow my own advice.
W/E FML
I think I might finish the CAS portfolio on time. I also think I might ask Godsey if I can take the AP Spanish test, because I suck.
I'm pretty emo right now. I guess that might be good otherwise I wouldn't be updating. My aunt came over and we went to Las Vegas. I met a grand uncle who seems really cool and has a daughter only four years older than me. The amount of food that went into my mouth is obscene, so I probably gained a few million pounds. I hate Las Vegas to be honest, but my aunt made it bearable. Hopefully we will go on a longer trip over the summer.
The UCLA vs UC Berkeley debate still rages, I might go to CAL day on the 18th. I hope I go alone, I can't stand traveling with my dad. I hate how my dad goes on and on about how having kids was the worst thing to happen in his life. I understand that I'm a huge burden, but it's annoying to have to hear that every fucking day of my life. It's better than the alternative though. Baby Pishi essentially told him to stfu about it, even if it was around his children. I guess being unconditionally honest is a good trait, but it still makes me feel like shit. I shouldn't feel like shit though, because I could have turned out so much worse. It's probably pure luck that I'm in the position I am right now: deciding between a million awesome schools and planning for my future, something I didn't think I'd actually have a few years ago.
I guess I've learned that accomplishment doesn't change where you stand with the people you care about. I haven't been treated any differently for turning my grades around. I have learned that accomplishment matters to strangers and acquaintances, people who you have yet to develop a real relationship with. Anyway, the moral of my life is that I shouldn't bother trying to please any other than myself, because they won't really care anyway. Still, I'm trying to get into premed programs, so I guess I'm pretty stupid since I don't follow my own advice.
W/E FML