Religion, Conditioning, and Just Because.
Yes.
I said it.
Religion.
You know. Sometimes I wonder if people don't have such a dislike of religion simply because it does the same thing long term relationships do at times - bring out the worst in a person. Like, in or out of a religion, have you noticed there's no real escape? Like tell someone you're Buddhist for example. Or Christian. Or Jewish or Islamic... doesn't matter. Suddenly there is this whole like, change in how you are seen. In fact... same thing happens if you say you arn't religious... suddenly there is a box. And literally, people take what you say and speak to you very differently once they are capable of boxing you. Like if you're Buddhist it means you will come back as an ant or you don't believe in anything other than yourself? Or Christian, DONT SAY THE WORD GOD UNLESS YOU ARE PRAYING... and God help you if you try speaking about God to anyone... suddenly claws are out because you're idea of God isn't right because you are such and such sect, or it means you are uber religious and if someone says the wrong thing TO you you could go off on them. OH NO. And if your Islamic you must be a terrorist, and if you are Jewish you must wear a little cap. So you know.... There are plenty of Christian and Catholic Terrorists. But that is besides the point.... My original point was, fingerpointing. :} For instance, non-religious people are sad because it means they are going to die a permanent death. Well seems good to me, no matter what religion you are a part of some other religion with great credentials and thousands of years of experience tells you something horrible will happen to you, or how unenlightened you are, for believing in something else.
Point is... I found this awsome quote.
'Each of us must make our own true way and when we do, that way will express the universal way... this is the mystery.'
Shunryu Suzuki
So, just so everyone gets it. That means, whether I decide to be Jewish, Christian, Islamic, Catholic, Non-Religious, Buddhist or other. I am still me. What I have chosen expresses me. And this is my truth. And probably not in the way you would assume. What I choose in no way changes who I am, just as who I am in no way changes what I choose. Same goes for you with others ;} I mean seriously, ever get tired of the pigeon holing. Why must there be elitist clubs all the time? Why can't people truly realize they can be uniquely and individually equal. Our strengths lay in our unique teamwork, not in our blending (provided everyone is not hampered from seeking said way by someone others way).
This goes on to my other word. Conditioning.
At what point do we know how we think and feel? Have you ever wondered that? I mean, we work so hard at hiding things from ourselves when they contradict our version of reality that at what point can we realistically stand back and take a good long look? When we are no longer afraid of what we will see? Because we already feel like we know our faults but don't want them to be there? Or do we know and accept the faults... and then does that mean we are saying said faults are "ok?" And what is a fault? I mean, to me it might be talking too much, but to another person it might be not asking how they are when we first see them?
I tend to be of a mind to try and trust myself and do what I can when I can. I am trying to learn to know when I can and can't do anything about a situation, and when I should or shouldn't do anything. I guess I think that maybe I fail half the time because my order is messed up.... always trying to change things I cant and not doing enough when I should. Ultimately I just don't want to hurt people. Settle down into a quiet life, have kids I can protect, admire and watch grow up, travel the world, and love. I want to love deeply for everyone in my life. Without confusion and without drama and small print text. Without conditions. Like, Yeah, I will love you, unless you EAT CARROTS!!!!! lol
I want close friends, and a house close enough to the city to get to work and go to Fred and Meyers, but far enough away to maybe have some horses, and wooded area for paint ball, dirt biking, or maybe just stealth capture the flag..... =D
My largest problems in decision making is once I choose to try something I have already invested a lot in hope, I am pretty stubborn about sticking things out NO MATTER WHAT, I never want to hurt anyone, and I am very self critical of why I would even want to think of changing my choice to try.
Probably a great strength... but at times it is a failing that tends to end up in so much more pain than being clean cut. Which makes me even more self critical because as I said... I never wanted to hurt anyone.
Guess that's my Conditioning... and just because...
question of the week.... (yes I changed it so I have more story writing time :} )
Tell me what you think, Religion, God, Carrots, conditioning?
I said it.
Religion.
You know. Sometimes I wonder if people don't have such a dislike of religion simply because it does the same thing long term relationships do at times - bring out the worst in a person. Like, in or out of a religion, have you noticed there's no real escape? Like tell someone you're Buddhist for example. Or Christian. Or Jewish or Islamic... doesn't matter. Suddenly there is this whole like, change in how you are seen. In fact... same thing happens if you say you arn't religious... suddenly there is a box. And literally, people take what you say and speak to you very differently once they are capable of boxing you. Like if you're Buddhist it means you will come back as an ant or you don't believe in anything other than yourself? Or Christian, DONT SAY THE WORD GOD UNLESS YOU ARE PRAYING... and God help you if you try speaking about God to anyone... suddenly claws are out because you're idea of God isn't right because you are such and such sect, or it means you are uber religious and if someone says the wrong thing TO you you could go off on them. OH NO. And if your Islamic you must be a terrorist, and if you are Jewish you must wear a little cap. So you know.... There are plenty of Christian and Catholic Terrorists. But that is besides the point.... My original point was, fingerpointing. :} For instance, non-religious people are sad because it means they are going to die a permanent death. Well seems good to me, no matter what religion you are a part of some other religion with great credentials and thousands of years of experience tells you something horrible will happen to you, or how unenlightened you are, for believing in something else.
Point is... I found this awsome quote.
'Each of us must make our own true way and when we do, that way will express the universal way... this is the mystery.'
Shunryu Suzuki
So, just so everyone gets it. That means, whether I decide to be Jewish, Christian, Islamic, Catholic, Non-Religious, Buddhist or other. I am still me. What I have chosen expresses me. And this is my truth. And probably not in the way you would assume. What I choose in no way changes who I am, just as who I am in no way changes what I choose. Same goes for you with others ;} I mean seriously, ever get tired of the pigeon holing. Why must there be elitist clubs all the time? Why can't people truly realize they can be uniquely and individually equal. Our strengths lay in our unique teamwork, not in our blending (provided everyone is not hampered from seeking said way by someone others way).
This goes on to my other word. Conditioning.
At what point do we know how we think and feel? Have you ever wondered that? I mean, we work so hard at hiding things from ourselves when they contradict our version of reality that at what point can we realistically stand back and take a good long look? When we are no longer afraid of what we will see? Because we already feel like we know our faults but don't want them to be there? Or do we know and accept the faults... and then does that mean we are saying said faults are "ok?" And what is a fault? I mean, to me it might be talking too much, but to another person it might be not asking how they are when we first see them?
I tend to be of a mind to try and trust myself and do what I can when I can. I am trying to learn to know when I can and can't do anything about a situation, and when I should or shouldn't do anything. I guess I think that maybe I fail half the time because my order is messed up.... always trying to change things I cant and not doing enough when I should. Ultimately I just don't want to hurt people. Settle down into a quiet life, have kids I can protect, admire and watch grow up, travel the world, and love. I want to love deeply for everyone in my life. Without confusion and without drama and small print text. Without conditions. Like, Yeah, I will love you, unless you EAT CARROTS!!!!! lol
I want close friends, and a house close enough to the city to get to work and go to Fred and Meyers, but far enough away to maybe have some horses, and wooded area for paint ball, dirt biking, or maybe just stealth capture the flag..... =D
My largest problems in decision making is once I choose to try something I have already invested a lot in hope, I am pretty stubborn about sticking things out NO MATTER WHAT, I never want to hurt anyone, and I am very self critical of why I would even want to think of changing my choice to try.
Probably a great strength... but at times it is a failing that tends to end up in so much more pain than being clean cut. Which makes me even more self critical because as I said... I never wanted to hurt anyone.
Guess that's my Conditioning... and just because...
question of the week.... (yes I changed it so I have more story writing time :} )
Tell me what you think, Religion, God, Carrots, conditioning?