Absentia - Part I
Title: Absentia
Pairing: Sehun/Kai; minor!(Sehun/Tao, Kai/Luhan, Sehun/Kris); slight!Sehun/Yixing
Rated: NC-17
Summary: Sehun wishes to see the future. He unknowingly jumps in time and loses five years in the past. Slowly, he realizes, he didn't only lose time. He lost a lot.
A/N: This isn't fantasy.
Sehun| Kai
The sound of the door closing and a click and whoosh of an umbrella folding that followed after in the living room made Sehun whiz out of his comfortable seat in the bedroom, kicking his laptop screen shut accidentally in the process, and poke his head out to see the only person he’s been waiting for to come home.
“Welcome back.” He stands at the bedroom door and opens his arms wide with an endearing smile that always makes the other man in the room fall for him more, if it’s even still possible.
“I’m home.” Kai brushes the little drops of rain off of his shoulders and proceeds to step into the waiting arms in front of him.
The smell of mixed fresh air and rain combined with Kai’s natural scent greets Sehun as he buries his head onto the thick layer of coat Kai has been wearing. He smells so good to Sehun and it gets him even more addicted to his scent every each passing day.
“Mmmm,” Sehun mumbles as the tip of his nose touches Kai’s bare skin just above his collar while the other inclines his head closer to snuggle his boyfriend more.
“Guess what?” Kai pinches Sehun’s cheek the moment the latter decided to let go of him and he looks into his eyes lovingly.
Sehun smiles widely as Kai pulls up a huge box in between them, the ribbon dangling beautifully on the edges, and Sehun peeks at the translucent middle of the top cover to see which flavor he got.
“Happy birthday.”
“Oh. Kai.” Sehun flings his arms out to Kai and tackled him on the wall, kissing him on every part of his face while the other makes sure he doesn’t smash the cake in between them.
It’s been 6 months since they’ve been living under the same roof, Kai rented an apartment for the both of them for their convenience. A year and a half into their relationship and it’s still going better, with endless improvement and development, if it's still not perfect as it is. Sehun wishes he can live more years with him, and if possible, an eternity.
The relationship is ideal, Kai works as a freelance photographer and Sehun as a magazine editor, sometimes Sehun will ask Kai to help him with a feature he thought of on his own and Kai gladly helps his boyfriend who's a foot away from being an editor-in-chief. Sometimes Sehun asks Kai to work for them, his company, since his work doesn't get much pay unlike when he's a resident photographer but Kai refuses and reasons that he had always loved being freelance, and he's still loving it now. Sehun respects his decision and believes that Kai always knows what he wants, therefore Kai is leading himself to the right path. Just as how he had led himself to Sehun.
Their relationship started off when Kai met Sehun at a musical act, where Sehun's bestfriend, Tao, performed as the main character and Kai was hired by the performing arts company as one of the official photographers of the said event. Eventually, he met Sehun as he was in the middle of taking individual shots of Tao after the performance where Sehun has been watching from the side and cheering for his bestfriend. Since then, he never laid his eyes on anyone else, Sehun was the only one.
Sehun's bestfriend has been his bestfriend for the longest time, he can never recall when they ever started being friends. He's the only one who knows Sehun the most, everything about him, and that's one of the reasons why they don't leave each other. They have the best relationship as friends, and Sehun thought no other person would ever be like Tao to him, even though he only sees Tao as someone very very close to him. Until he met Kai and proved himself wrong. Soon enough, Kai knows everything about him too and they shared moments together that he and Tao haven't had, like kissing, waking up in each other's embrace, and making love. He doesn't know how, but one day he just fell in love with this Kai.
They became more intimate and more open to each other when they started sharing the same house, the same room, the same bed, and there was nothing Sehun could hide from him anymore. Kai knows him too well, probably more than how much Tao knows him, Sehun thinks, like how he knows his fear of the dark as childish as it may seem. Kai never lets Sehun alone, he sleeps beside him every night with his arms wrapped tightly around the younger's middle as he kisses him goodnight and they both go to dreamland in no time. Kai waits for him when Sehun is stuck at work and he needs to go over time just to finish it, even with a lot of his failed attempts to persuade Kai to go to sleep before him, he still comes home to his wide awake boyfriend on the couch with a smile lingering on his lips. He does it because Sehun couldn't sleep in the dark, or maybe he just can't sleep without Sehun. Nevertheless, Sehun knows it's because of him and he's glad he entrusted himself to the right person. He wouldn't have otherwise.
Sehun enjoys his birthday, not his first time with Kai, but the first time they're celebrating living together. His caring boyfriend made a surprise candlelit dinner for him, cooking and arranging everything by himself and Sehun is left teary-eyed and happy as he looks at Kai who's holding his hand gently and protectively.
Sehun hugs him tightly and looks him in the eyes deeply after dinner, as Kai lifts him up, while the other swings his legs to his waist to hold him up, Kai supports him as he puts his palms behind his thighs in case he slips. They smile at each other lovingly without breaking their eye contact while Kai creeps a hand up between them and playfully sticks an icing on Sehun's nose. He laughs, Sehun pouts before the twinkle in his eyes appear and the next thing they know they are covered in white sticky icing on the face. Sehun reaches out for Kai's face with his icing coated finger, about to swipe it under his nose since it’s his habit to tease him like that because he always sneezes whenever Sehun sticks his finger under his nose, but Kai moves his head away and says with a warning,
"I'm going to drop you."
Sehun grins before he teasingly pushes his finger closer to his face but pulls it back to put it in his own mouth instead to taste it. Kai eyes him playfully and pulls him closer to reach his chin where a good amount of icing sticks, and he pretends to bite it, licking it slowly to remove the sugary cream on his boyfriend's milky skin. A tingling sensation creeps up Sehun's skin as he bends over his lover and kisses him on his lips covered with frosting. They smiled against their lips before Kai puts him down and leads him to the sink to wash their faces and get rid of the stickiness that's starting to get uncomfortable.
Soon enough, Sehun is pulled to their bedroom and his shirt is coming off and dropping to the floor in a blink of an eye, the slightly cold air passing the glass windows that reveal a very beautiful scenery of the city. Sehun savors the cool breeze on his face before he gets pulled back, his back hitting the hard yet soft front of his boyfriend's body. Arms automatically wrapped around his waist and a shiver shoots through his spine as Kai places a soft kiss at the back of his neck, trailing it up to the skin at the back of his ear and gently whispering sweet nothings that soothe Sehun's senses and make him forget anything that needs rationality.
"I'll make it your best birthday so far." Kai whispers sexily, his breath tickling his ear that makes the hair on his skin stand and a tingling sensation spreads around his system. Just hearing his voice low and deep yet calm turns him on. It always does. Kai resumes kissing him from the shell of his ear down to the side of his face, tracing his jaw to his neck until he reaches his left shoulder blade. Sehun's eyes are shut while he inclines his head to the side, breathing heavily as Kai's lips move wonderfully, stopping just at the tip of his shoulder and he can feel him pulling him closer until he could feel every inch of his body from behind his back. Kai kisses his shoulder with a peck, lightly tracing circles on Sehun's bare abdomen and the younger shudders at his touch.
Sehun turns around to claim the lips that have been wandering his body for a while now, so he laces his arms around his boyfriend's neck and tiptoes just slightly to reach him and feel them on his own. Kai steps forward a little, locking Sehun's legs in between his and bends to get more of his lips on him, darting his tongue out into the younger and eveything inside their mouths melts at the rolling of their wet flesh, gently sucking occasionally, earning soft little moans from the delicate boy in his arms whose hands are now exploring the skin underneath his shirt, his coat has long been gone. Taking notice of the obstruction of the offending fabric, Kai pulls away just enough for him to dump his top clothing somewhere beside him before he picks up where he left whatever he was doing to Sehun. The birthday celebrant smiles mischievously at the sight in front of him and leans in to kiss him again, because he is his tonight, and vice versa.
Kai feels Sehun's mouth all over his body, lapping at every inch of exposed skin, turning him on at every swirl of his tongue on his throbbing skin. He feels him slowly going down on his knees until he is at his waist-level and he sees his fingers fumble through his belt buckle. But today is not just an ordinary time for sex, it's special in many ways. Kai stops him with a gentle touch and he pulls him up by the shoulders, his eyes full of meaning and love for him.
"It's your birthday."
He smiles softly, contradicting the heated gaze of the other. His skin is glowing red as he drowns in a strong frenzy that emanated from the contact of skin against skin. Sehun licks his lips and Kai senses a little slip of his control but he holds it back for a little longer. He leans in to Sehun's ear with a mocking smirk.
"Let me."
It's enough for Sehun to feel a pooling sensation just above his lower extremities, weakening the joints behind his knees but it's nothing compared to what he feels when Kai's fingers actually come into contact with his lower abdomen and work its way to the button of his pants.
Usually Kai takes everything slowly and lets Sehun adjust to everything but he knows how much Sehun aches for it now seeing how he's holding his breath in anticipation and the way his eyes fall halfway at the impending touch. In one swift motion, the evening breeze blows on Sehun's uncovered body, giving him chills at the back of his spine, his temperature swaying from cold to hot, hot to cold, until he feels himself enveloped in a soothing warmth, Kai's hot breath blowing heat into his skin, sending it up to his system and Sehun had to clutch at the window frame behind him to hold himself up while Kai takes him in deeper. His head hits the nearest glass window as he throws it back with his mouth open to catch his breath that Kai seems to be sucking out of him even from below him. One of his hands fly to Kai's hair and a low moan escapes his lips when he looks down and sees Kai in this glorious position, it's usually him in that place. Marks of his sweaty skin stick to the window as it made contact with the glass and its coldness contradicts the heat pooling in his stomach. He feels his grip on his hair faltering and his legs shaking. Kai does one last slick lick before he goes up to kiss him passionately on the lips to give him time to rest.
Sehun mewls under his touch and he is blown away by the fact that Kai actually sacrificed his position for him. When he realizes how hot and urgent Kai's touches are becoming, he reaches out to his pants and successfully undoes his belt and button in a matter of seconds. Kai buries his face on the junction between Sehun's neck and shoulder, his control dangling by the tip of his finger and he pulls Sehun closing the gap between them with a strong need. He rubs every part of him against the other, absorbing all the signals it sends to his senses, but nothing rational comes out of his mind. All he's aware of is Sehun's naked body and the whole of him about to wrap around its beauty. Sehun finds his way inside his pants without pulling away and Kai groans in his ear at the delicate touch as he feels his finger gently sliding at the tip and a thumb running on the protruding vein at the side.
"Kai."
That's the signal. Kai knows that tone and that's all he's been waiting for. He pushes Sehun almost immediately but still mildly, not able to pull him to his bed anymore, instead he turns him around and the celebrant faces the huge glass, his palms rest on the cold smooth surface and he leans his cheek sideways as Kai quickly pokes him from behind with his one finger, inserting another and Sehun grits his teeth as he feels himself stretch from the beautiful movements of his boyfriend's rough calloused yet skilful fingers. He gives him short brief thrusts before pulling out and Sehun draws in a deep breath when the absence of his fingers is replaced by Kai's evident hardness. The moans that escape their lips filled the room and Sehun, even against the dark space on the other side of the glass, creates a huge fog on the surface as he releases short breaths from each thrust that fills him in. Kai keeps the barely hanging control in him as he hugs the limping body in front of him, giving sweet caresses at his sides and thighs, almost the opposite of how fast and hard he rocks into the man he swore to live the rest of his life with. He plants loving kisses on his back as he lets Sehun throw his head back onto his shoulder, gripping the window frame hard which sting after a while. Kai takes the opportunity to grab his front and tugs at it almost as hard as his push. He feels it twitch and Kai knows he's close, making him increase his speed diligently. Grunts and moans echo all around the room, the glass shaking dangerously but it's not the first time they did it against it. Sehun shuts his eyes tightly as a surge of pleasure waves through him, and he explodes onto his hand, the other has been anticipating it any time now. Kai continuously tugs him to let him ride his climax and Sehun closes his hand on the busy one of the other, guiding him even though he has 0% strength left. The heat from his skin triggers Kai's release like a time bomb and he blows up inside of him, strings of his stickiness filling him up and Sehun couldn't even describe which is more satisfying than having his hard earned substance flow inside him. This is his way of imprinting Sehun that he is his, and his alone. After a few more thrusts, Kai wraps his arms around his upper body as he chuckles softly in his ear.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
He feebly pulls out and carries Sehun over to his bed, draping his naked glory with the sheets and kisses him on the forehead. But instead of Kai slipping under the sheets with him, he pulls his pants up quickly and scoops Sehun up from the bed and carries him outside to the balcony, at the small space behind the glass window.
"What are you doing?" He panics while Kai takes him out bridal style, the cold wind blowing him and Kai wraps the sheets around him tighter while he gently lays him on the floor. Sehun's face is of pure confusion and Kai laughs at how cute he is right at the moment, flushed and clueless.
"Just wait, baby."
The red on his face grows more evident at the sudden pet name, and Kai laughs louder while he lays beside him. The cold floor sure is going to give them colds the next morning but the sheets protect Sehun from it, whilst Kai just directly laid on it. The boy in the fluff of cotton blanket moves to give space for Kai and he tugs on his arm to slip in. Kai rolls over to his side and Sehun covers him, sharing the huge one piece blanket among themselves. Kai takes the younger's hand and gives it a kiss.
"Tell me your wish."
He looks directly at him, his gaze intent on those black solid orbs that he dreams of every night.
Sehun melts under his stare and he laces his fingers between his as he smiles.
"I just want the future to come faster. I wanna see how it will be for the both of us." His lips curve up as he leans his head on Kai's shoulder. "That's all I want for now."
Kai returns the smile and he tenderly lifts his face up to look at the sky.
That's when Sehun sees it, a jet of spark from the sky and it disappears in a second. Another comes next, until there were a few more passing the night sky like little balls of flame. It paints the sky and compliments the stars.
"Falling stars." He gasps.
"Close your eyes and wish."
Sehun closes his eyes at once. He has a smile playing on his face while Kai watches him affectionately.
"Happy birthday, Sehun."
He doesn't reply.
"I love you."
...
Kai realizes that Sehun has fallen asleep. He tucks him in and carries him back to the bed, leaving a short sweet kiss before he lays beside him, arms protectively around his middle, and he too, dozes off.
•
An alarm goes off somewhere and it reverberates into his temples. Sehun grumbles as he gropes the sheets for a pillow. He doesn't remember ever putting an alarm, it's usually Kai who wakes him up every day. It rings for two straight minutes and Sehun couldn't take it anymore. He sits up straight, rubs his eyes, and waits for his vision to focus.
The memory of last night sends a smile on his face at once. He's now a year older, another year with Kai, another year down, and another year to anticipate. The alarm eventually stops, and he notices that something's wrong.
"Kai?"
Silence.
He takes the view of the room in.
"Kai?"
His voice wavers and fear creeps up at him silently.
He takes the digital alarm clock on the bedside table, he doesn't remember ever having it before. His fingers tremble as he examines it. The minutes blink repeatedly. Sehun looks closer, and beneath is the date.
A sharp intake of breath.
April 13, 2017.
5 years from the supposed now.