Trying To Tell You No But My Body Keeps On Telling You Yes
Title: Trying To Tell You No But My Body Keeps On Telling You Yes
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Sehun/Kai
Summary: Oh Sehun has a tiny little crush on Kim Jongin.
Prompt: sekai - one more night
“1, 2, 3.”
Kris counts along with his drumsticks in a very low voice before the bass booms and the guitar follows immediately with a mild reggae beat.
“So I cross my heart and I hope to die,” Kai leans forward to the mic stand with his hand clasped tightly on the middle and the mic itself. A drop of sweat slowly trickling down the side of his face as he opens his mouth to lick his lips once before singing the next line again.
“That I’ll only stay with you one more night.”
Tao sweeps his fingers professionally against his fretboard before the drums come on with Kris banging his head along with the beat and Yixing continues with his guitar, eyes closed and focused on his own rhythm.
Sehun nearly misses his part as he realizes he has been staring too much. He fumbles with his own strings for a few seconds, earning a glare from their drummer, before he catches up with the song and lets out a sigh of relief, feeling his heartbeat drum faster inside his chest. He knows it isn’t his mistake that’s making it race right now, that’s not exactly the reason. He couldn’t fathom how it has become him for the past few days.
Damn this stupid crush on him.
Sehun quickly shakes his head in an attempt to bring himself back to the practice. If he misses another note, he is sure he’ll be grilled meat for Valentine’s day judging by the looks their blonde drummer has been giving him from behind his back. He gulps and lets himself be taken away by the relaxing arrangement they’ve done to Maroon5’s One More Night.
“But baby there you go again, there you go again making me love you.” Kai pauses momentarily.
“Yeah I stopped using my head, using my head let it all go.”
“Got you stuck on my body, on my body like a tattoo.”
Kai deliberately pulls his white tank up while shaking his hips seductively.
Sehun wishes he didn’t look up at the same time. But he already has. And his cheeks immediately warms at the sight. Kai’s skin is tan, probably gold when it hits some light, Sehun deduced long ago, while Sehun’s is pale. He’s not going to deny that he has never thought of tan skin against his pale white a few times… many times, even.
Sehun abruptly looks away to hide the heat emanating from his skin. He’s sure no one is watching him now because Kris tends to get engrossed in his own beats, Yixing always has his own world when it’s him and his music, and Tao is too busy admiring his own skills than watch his members do what they ought to do. While Kai…
Kai is always the performer among them. He knows rapport as well as his ABC’s. He practices like they’re always already in the actual performance. He keeps eye contact with inanimate objects thinking they’re their audience. This is probably why they receive so much love from the people. Everyone gets to feel the song through Kai’s eyes.
But Sehun still looks away. There’s always one person among them who judges him as hard as rock. Himself.
“Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh.” Sehun doesn’t miss his part this time.
He has always been Kai’s backing vocals and so he delivers his part well as he strums his guitar at the same time.
“Yeah, baby give me one more night!”
Sehun freezes for a second as Kai just looked his way with a smile as he said that line.
“Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh.” Sehun repeats, locking eyes with him.
“Yeah, baby give me one more night!” Kai follows, still looking his way.
Sehun does it again and he is slightly enjoying it.
“Yeah, baby give me one more night!” Kai looks back to the audience, raising his hand as if to invite them all to.
Sehun feels a little disappointment pass through him. He has always dreamed of Kai saying that to him. He sure has an answer ready for it too.
Before he knows it, the song has ended. Yixing does the last note with his guitar and Sehun just falls on his back, dropping on a beanbag. He’s tired.
Kai’s been running all day in his head.
His stupid crush ain’t going anywhere anytime soon.
♦
“Have you made up your mind on the setlist?” Kai hands a piece of torn paper to Yixing who is currently toning his Fender Strat. Yixing glances at it without even taking it from Kai’s hand before nodding towards Kris.
The taller blonde man is playing with his sticks when Kai approaches him with that cool face of his. “Any more suggestions?”
“Ask Tao.” Kris pretends to drum with the air as he speaks, not even looking up at Kai.
“Tao.” Kai calls out for him but the Chinese black-haired guy is busy making love with his bass guitar, stroking it lightly with his fingers from base to fretboard, checking for any scratch.
He only grunts with a “Sehun.”
Kai shrugs and moves towards Sehun who’s still catching his breath on the fluffy beanbag with his eyes closed.
Kai drops to his side, making the bag ball up suddenly on Sehun’s part. It startles the other while Kai just leans back and spreads his arm on Sehun’s slumped shoulders. Sehun opens his eyes to see a paper blocking his vision.
“Setlist for tomorrow. You have anything to add?”
The voice sends chills on Sehun’s arms and back but before he could comprehend what it said, he already imagines colourful clouds and butterflies set to fly towards a rainbow.
“Jesus.” He lets out.
“What?” Kai is tired too so he rests his head on Sehun’s shoulder as he stuffs the paper into Sehun’s hand so he can sleep this way.
“You’re too heavy!” Sehun pushes Kai off of the beanbag that supported both of them and Kai lands on his butt on the floor. Sehun is in panic deep inside, but he composes himself almost as fast as his heartbeats as of the moment. Kai rubs his back but stays still on the floor anyway and lies on it as he’s just too exhausted to move any more.
Sehun scans the setlist immediately and takes pity on Kai’s spent figure.
“This is good enough.” He comments before standing up from his seat and sticking the paper on Kai’s forehead. He kicks him on the leg before saying, “The beanbag is yours.”
♦
It’s Valentine’s Day and Paperdreams is invited to play on this big occasion held at their compound. This is why Kai and his band were too busy during the past few days, preparing for their performance for the night.
It’s sure that mostly couples would come and enjoy the event. Sehun doesn’t even have anyone special in his life so he’s not entirely excited. He’s going to celebrate it with his band anyway, the closest thing he could call family.
And well, there’s Kai.
Kris is setting up his drums while Yixing positions himself at the edge of the stage, legs hanging at the side as he checks his guitar for any out of tune’s. Tao is likely in the bathroom checking himself out or if his eyeliner is smeared-- one skill he learned from one of his Korean friends back at his hometown, some kid with really finely shaped fingers-- since he’s been nowhere on stage yet.
Sehun doesn’t bother checking his guitar unlike Yixing. He’s done that for over two hours now and he just couldn’t bear to keep on checking his guitar when he knows there’s nothing wrong with it. If there’s anything, it’s where Kai is now. He’s been late and Sehun has been checking his watch every 30 seconds just to see if his watch isn’t just working properly or if Kai really is late. He hardly gets late.
“Yeah, baby give me one more night.” Sehun sings to himself to entertain and ease his boredom as he sits on one of the amplifiers, drumming his fingers unconsciously.
“Trying to tell you no, but my body keeps on telling you yes.” He sings dully as he checks his watch one more time. The people around them are starting to get thick and there’s still no sign of Kai.
And then there’s him.
Sehun stands involuntarily as he sees Kai approaching them in a half-run, a huge smile on his face, which Sehun almost automatically just returns as the smile creeps on his face too, when his eyes fall on the thing in Kai’s hands.
The smile that has still been surfacing instantly drops. Kim Jongin is holding a bouquet of yellow flowers.
“Sorry.” Kai scratches the back of his head cutely. “Got stuck in traffic.”
He apologizes to his members with a small smile. Kris would have stuck a stick down his throat and roast him for dinner, but he has ample time for that later. They have to start.
“Get on.” Kris mutters in a menacing whisper and Kai knows he’s getting lucky for getting only that. Tao materializes next to him, hair gelled up the right way and eyeliner as thick as the bags under them.
Kai goes to the mic stand with the flowers still in one of his hands.
“Hello everyone.” His seemingly sexy voice booms up the buzzing night and the crowd turns to them in anticipation. They have always loved Kim Jongin’s voice. A few girly squeals went off from a distance and Kai smiles cockily at this.
“Happy Valentine’s day.” He cocks his head to the side with a smirk, the crowd giggles and the men kiss their dates.
“My girlfriend wants you!” A male voice yells from the right and the people erupt with laughter.
Kai feigns surprise and lets out an inaudible “oh” before a smile takes over his face.
“Sorry. I’m sort of unavailable tonight.” The female population lets out a ‘boo’ at this, showing their disappointment. A few men even shout “no fair!!” A playful smirk tugs at Kai’s lips.
“But I promise we’ll make this moment worth it, baby!” Kai announces to the mic with a manly scream. Cheers erupt from the crowd.
The frown on Sehun’s face deepens. He has never heard of Kai being taken. So what are the flowers for? He has never mentioned ever having a girlfriend. When has he ever got himself a girlfriend?
Kai looks around his back for his members’ confirmation. Kris gives him a thumbs up. Kai walks to the backstage, passing a stiff Sehun, to get his bottle of water and to place the flowers somewhere safe.
“Ready?” Kris asks through the mic as soon as Kai returns to his position.
“Yes we are.” Kai answers seductively, sending a wink to a random girl.
“1, 2, 3.”
“You and I go hard…”
Sehun manages to keep his poker face on the whole time. They’ve gone through a total of 13 songs, and the next one is the last one. He isn’t enjoying it. He tells himself it’s probably because he has never enjoyed Valentine’s day anyway at all. It’s always been just a day to him.
It’s not like he has never been in a relationship before. He already had. One time, with his senior back in his early years in high school. He was a really nice senior to him, has a baby-face and people would always think Sehun’s older than him. Their relationship was cute. But it was also short. It just didn’t work for him. For them. Sehun is in love with music. His senior thinks it’s a joke. Later on, he graduated with honors and had moved on to college. Sehun was left to repeat the same grade because apparently, he was so into music he has forgotten about his academics.
But it doesn’t matter. Sehun loves playing with his band.
And it still doesn’t change the fact that Valentine’s day is just a day to him. And romance doesn’t really work that well with everyone.
It doesn’t matter, Sehun thinks. He’s already deeply in love with what he does.
What he seemingly just can’t understand is why he’s feeling more bitter every single second right at this moment. He watches as Kai cracks his neck for the last stage and he can feel his own mood going down more.
When you can’t get into a relationship, it doesn’t mean others can’t as well, he tells himself.
Kai can fuck off and fuck anyone he wants tonight, you shouldn’t care, Sehun chants in his head.
Fuking Kai, fucking someone tonight, fuck, Sehun swallows all the water in his bottle in one huge gulp, the water trickling down his neck and he lets it.
“Sehun.” Kris calls his attention and he deadpans at him.
“What?”
“Last stage?” Kris looks at him impatiently.
“Dude. Duet with Kai.” Yixing walks to him and points at the piece of paper in his hand. The setlist.
Second To None. Party version. Kai ft. Sehun.
JFC.
Sehun’s eyes widen. Second to None? He sure scanned the setlist before, how does he not ever recall seeing it there?
Or maybe he was too pre-occupied with Kai on the floor that time that he missed it.
“Get on with it.” Yixing pushes him to the front with his guitar hanging loosely on his shoulder. Tao is giving him looks that say “you’re weird”. And Kai has been waiting for him there.
Sehun gulps. He was just trying to convince himself that Kai is allowed to fuck anyone tonight and now that he’s staring at him he’s changing his mind. He is not going to let Kai fuck anyone else tonight. Anyone else but-.
“Ready, Sehun?” Kai daubs his tongue out at the corner of his lips but Sehun could feel the genuine smile on his lips. His heart flutters for a second.
Sehun nods and Kai simply turns back to the audience.
“This is our last stage! I hope you enjoyed the night!”
Yixing’s guitar and Tao’s bass bellow through the cold night.
Sehun is sure he received heart-ripping, soul-clenching, and underwear-dropping stares exclusively from Kai during the last song. He doesn’t know how to put it but it seems like he was sending a message. But how can Sehun know? All that ran through his head that time was stripping Kai off of his clothes and taking him then and there after those stares. How is he supposed to stay coherent after that?
Sehun gulps another bottle of water down his throat at the backstage as the night has ended with the crowd cheering for them from the stage. He’s tired at the same time feeling accomplished at the successful turn out of events. He silently stands there with his coat off and only in a black tank, resting his back on the cold wall.
He eyes the flowers sitting directly in front of him with a frown.
A hand picks them up and Sehun almost chokes at the view in front of him. Kai completely lost his top and has been smiling at him half-naked.
“Great stage right there.” Kai nods at him after the compliment and gathers the bouquet in one hand. “Party at my house tonight. You coming?”
“Sure.” Sehun answers immediately. His eyes fall back to the flowers in his hand. “I thought you have a date?”
“Just about to.” Kai smirks and leaves him there. Sehun finds his behavior odd but he follows him out anyway. He grabs his coat and throws it at Kai when everyone screams as Kai walks out without his clothes on. Kai tucks himself safely in Sehun’s coat and smiles at him gratefully. Sehun just rolls his eyes.
They ride together back to Kai’s house and Sehun finds it suspiciously quiet.
“Where are Kris and Tao and the others?”
“They’ve gone ahead.” Kai unlocks the door with his key and turns on the light in a little click. The house is empty.
“By gone you mean…?” Sehun knits his eyebrows together impatiently at Kai. If he’s doing a joke on him, he’s surely going to pay him back.
“Gone as in went home.” Kai pulls Sehun lightly inside and closes the door. He removes Sehun’s coat off of him and hangs it on a nearby rack.
“I thought there’s a party.” Sehun clicks his tongue and raises his eyebrow at Kai. He’s tired and he wants to sleep, if it means he’s only going to witness Kai confessing to someone in the middle of the night.
The flowers flew from Kai’s hand to Sehun’s face.
“What the fuck?” Sehun catches it alright, after it bounced from his face.
“You’re too slow sometimes.” There’s a playful smile on Kai’s lips. He chuckles.
“What?” Sehun asks helplessly. He couldn’t ride in on the joke, not especially when the joke is seemingly to be him.
“Too slow.” Kai walks to him and smacks him on the back of his head lightly. “I just gave you flowers and you still don’t get it.”
Sehun looks down on the yellow flowers. Then Kai’s words echo in his head.
“WHAT?”
“What?” Kai returns the question innocently.
Sehun’s jaw drops. “Kim Jongin, are you saying you like me?”
Kai smiles cheekily. “What do you think?”
“I don’t want to think! I’ve been thinking for the past few days already!” Sehun whines and pushes the flowers back to Kai’s chest.
“I don’t want to say it.” Kai refuses and turns his back on him childishly.
“Not until you say what you’ve been thinking of lately.” Kai continues playfully.
Sehun contemplates. He never knew Kai swings that way. True, Kai has never had a girlfriend all his life, but it shouldn’t automatically mean he’s gay. Sehun has always thought Kai’s just a reserved type, he’s picky and he hasn't found the right girl for him yet. But this… this is saying otherwise.
And no, how can this perfect human being in front of him, who makes girls swoon over him, the one whom every other single girl, even those not single, in their neighbourhood wants to have is giving him flowers and telling him to think of what it means.
And Sehun doesn’t want to take advantage of that. It’s all his fault. He can’t let Kai succumb to his urges just because they sang a fucking suggestive sex song together. No matter how bad he wants him.
“Ya, Kim Jongin!” Sehun faces him and slams the flowers back to his hand. The bouquet drops to the floor.
“Get over it. I’m going home.” Sehun turns his back and walks to the door.
Kai’s face reddens. “Are you rejecting me?”
“Of course!” Sehun responds almost at once. “Yes!”
“Why?” Kai’s face falls into a serious one. The playful aura is gone and he feels as if he’s been slapped on the face.
“Kim Jongin, you’re not gay. You can’t like me.”
“But you like me!” Kai points it out confidently. Sehun pauses for a while.
“It doesn’t mean you have to return it!” Sehun wants to pull at his hair at the embarrassing confession. How is he ever going to face Kai the next day as soon as this conversation is done?
“But I thought when someone likes a person and the person likes him back, it would work.” Kai cocks an eyebrow at him, still hurt at the way Sehun just rejected him.
“So, you really do like me?” Sehun gasps at the realization. It’s not getting any easier.
Kai picks up the flower on the floor and stares at it. “I especially waited for this day.”
Something tugs at Sehun’s heart. Why did that have an effect on him?
“Fine. You can go.” Kai tells him irritably and stares at him.
Sehun is rooted to his spot. What is he supposed to say to that? Okay?
Sehun is still weighing the consequences in his head when Kai speaks up again.
“If you don’t in 5 seconds, I’ll have to kiss you.”
Shit.
That’s the biggest temptation Sehun has ever heard all his life. And now how many seconds have passed while he thinks of what to do?
“I-”
But Kai is striding towards him in three huge steps. Their lips are only a centimeter apart when Kai stops.
“Just this one night.”
The plea sounds so casual yet so heavy. Kai closes the gap between them and Sehun could only take a hushed intake of breath.
Sehun’s thoughts are in haywire as he tries to recall how they have ended up in the kitchen. But the loud clangs he could hear are definitely kitchenware. His back feels cold from the contact of the silverware on his skin while Kai kisses him senseless on a countertop. He kisses him back forcefully, not in any way admitting defeat from Kai’s domineering tongue. They’ve both rid themselves of their tops and Sehun is now clawing at Kai’s neck and back.
“Hng.” Sehun lets out a moan when Kai sucks on the skin just above his collarbone, turning his pale skin into a purplish one while he tugs on his waist and Sehun jumps at his hips, wrapping his legs around him. Kai carries him on the tabletop, not losing contact with his neck and places him there. He lies Sehun there and lets him go quick enough for him to climb on top of him on the table.
“Is this not going to break?” Sehun fears the hard wooden table as Kai’s weight adds with his.
Kai smirks. “I’m not doing you here.”
The thrill meter Sehun has been trying to calm down since Kai has kissed him shoots up to another level. He’s not sure if he’s excited because they’re not going to do it on a hard surface or because they’re actually going to do it.
Kai dives back to his business and kisses, bites, marks him on his naked upper body.
“Are you okay with oral?” There’s a tinge of red that spread on Kai’s cheeks and if anything, it makes Sehun bolder. Sehun licks his lips as a response to Kai and Kai bites his lip.
Sehun reaches for Kai’s pants without hesitation and frees his half-hardened member with a tug. Kai breathes heavily on top of him as he watches Sehun’s hand do all the wonders to his bestfriend. Kai lets out a few whimpers as Sehun tugs at him forcefully and makes Kai kneel in front of his face. Kai sits on Sehun’s chest and Sehun only supports himself through his elbows.
Kai swallows a deep breath when he feels Sehun’s lips wrap tightly around his head. Watching it makes him harder and the way Sehun swirls his tongue skilfully takes him to the edge. Sehun grasps the base tightly and kneads the flesh around it. Soft moans echo in the kitchen room while they both listen to Sehun’s slick licking noises when Sehun sucks in so suddenly.
“Ugh.” Kai falls on all fours as Sehun gives another huge suck, his head about to explode from the pleasure it’s giving him. Sehun snakes his own hand down his torso and under his bottoms. He fishes for his own member and strokes himself while giving Kai the best blowjob he has ever done yet.
The table’s legs start to shake as Kai starts to mildly thrust into Sehun’s mouth. However, he pulls himself out out of the blue and hurriedly kisses Sehun against his mouth again.
“Bed.” He croaks against his lips as he slips off of the table and pulls Sehun away from the kitchen and into his bedroom. They’ve been here together for quite a number of times before. Usually they hang out after practice or sometimes just give each other company when they want to compose their own songs. But they’re here for a different reason now.
Kai could hardly wait for the bed when he pulls Sehun in for a wet kiss. They both drop on the bed with a soft thump and they bump their heads together.
“Ow!”
“Ow.” Kai winces and rubs his forehead.
Sehun giggles.
“What’s funny?”
“Are you a virgin?”
Kai raises an eyebrow. “I am.”
Sehun leans forward with the aid of his elbows to plant a kiss on Kai’s lips. “I wouldn’t have guessed.”
“And you’re not?”
“Nope.”
“I wouldn’t have guessed.”
Sehun slaps his arm. They are currently in an awkward position, especially since Kai’s member is poking Sehun on the stomach while he lies on top of him.
Kai gives him another long breath-taking kiss. “C’mon, we only have 10 minutes left to take away my virginity on Valentine’s day.”
“Are you only aiming for that?”
Kai shrugs before diving back for his lips, biting occasionally. Soon, the cold air hits their naked state and Kai delves under the blankets while they dance together in a rhythm only their hips could make. Moans and groans elicit their mouths and form their own melody against the sound of the slapping of their skins.
Sehun wraps his legs around Kai’s hips and Kai angles him quite effectively.
“Just a little more.”
Sehun grunts, curses, and groans every single thrust. It creates a new type of music in Kai’s ears and he finds it pretty addictive. He works harder and plunges deeper causing the both of them to whimper.
“I’m gonna-”
“Me too-”
They both let out a long moan as their release are in sync with each other.
“Holy fuck.” Sehun mutters sensually as Kai rides their climax.
“Urgh.” Kai collapses on top of Sehun and rests his face on the pillow under Sehun’s head.
“So the goal is to score on Valentine’s day?”
“Hm.” Kai hums in response.
“So this is only for one night?” Sehun confirms.
“Yeah.” Kai buries his head on Sehun’s shoulder and kisses it once.
Sehun suddenly feels annoyed at his action. He feels his heart crack open at that. Does that mean he just became an instrument tonight? Is he right when he thought Kai only had this urge because they did the song together?
Kai pulls out of him and falls to his side. He lies on his back on the bed next to Sehun, his chest rising and falling rapidly.
“On second thought,” Kai takes a look at Sehun. “Can I have one more night?”
A small smile escapes Sehun’s lips. Kai returns it with a smirk. That look means something else. They both know it’s not only for one night. It’s going to go along with that song.
“Tsk. You’re weak. I want another round.” Sehun pushes himself off the bed and straddles Kai.
“Hah, save some for tomorrow.” Kai pulls Sehun down and kisses him eagerly.
“You know I really like you, right?”
Sehun hugs his body for some warmth. “I do.”
“Happy Valentine’s day, Sehun.”
“…It’s the 15th already.”
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Sehun/Kai
Summary: Oh Sehun has a tiny little crush on Kim Jongin.
Prompt: sekai - one more night
“1, 2, 3.”
Kris counts along with his drumsticks in a very low voice before the bass booms and the guitar follows immediately with a mild reggae beat.
“So I cross my heart and I hope to die,” Kai leans forward to the mic stand with his hand clasped tightly on the middle and the mic itself. A drop of sweat slowly trickling down the side of his face as he opens his mouth to lick his lips once before singing the next line again.
“That I’ll only stay with you one more night.”
Tao sweeps his fingers professionally against his fretboard before the drums come on with Kris banging his head along with the beat and Yixing continues with his guitar, eyes closed and focused on his own rhythm.
Sehun nearly misses his part as he realizes he has been staring too much. He fumbles with his own strings for a few seconds, earning a glare from their drummer, before he catches up with the song and lets out a sigh of relief, feeling his heartbeat drum faster inside his chest. He knows it isn’t his mistake that’s making it race right now, that’s not exactly the reason. He couldn’t fathom how it has become him for the past few days.
Damn this stupid crush on him.
Sehun quickly shakes his head in an attempt to bring himself back to the practice. If he misses another note, he is sure he’ll be grilled meat for Valentine’s day judging by the looks their blonde drummer has been giving him from behind his back. He gulps and lets himself be taken away by the relaxing arrangement they’ve done to Maroon5’s One More Night.
“But baby there you go again, there you go again making me love you.” Kai pauses momentarily.
“Yeah I stopped using my head, using my head let it all go.”
“Got you stuck on my body, on my body like a tattoo.”
Kai deliberately pulls his white tank up while shaking his hips seductively.
Sehun wishes he didn’t look up at the same time. But he already has. And his cheeks immediately warms at the sight. Kai’s skin is tan, probably gold when it hits some light, Sehun deduced long ago, while Sehun’s is pale. He’s not going to deny that he has never thought of tan skin against his pale white a few times… many times, even.
Sehun abruptly looks away to hide the heat emanating from his skin. He’s sure no one is watching him now because Kris tends to get engrossed in his own beats, Yixing always has his own world when it’s him and his music, and Tao is too busy admiring his own skills than watch his members do what they ought to do. While Kai…
Kai is always the performer among them. He knows rapport as well as his ABC’s. He practices like they’re always already in the actual performance. He keeps eye contact with inanimate objects thinking they’re their audience. This is probably why they receive so much love from the people. Everyone gets to feel the song through Kai’s eyes.
But Sehun still looks away. There’s always one person among them who judges him as hard as rock. Himself.
“Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh.” Sehun doesn’t miss his part this time.
He has always been Kai’s backing vocals and so he delivers his part well as he strums his guitar at the same time.
“Yeah, baby give me one more night!”
Sehun freezes for a second as Kai just looked his way with a smile as he said that line.
“Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh.” Sehun repeats, locking eyes with him.
“Yeah, baby give me one more night!” Kai follows, still looking his way.
Sehun does it again and he is slightly enjoying it.
“Yeah, baby give me one more night!” Kai looks back to the audience, raising his hand as if to invite them all to.
Sehun feels a little disappointment pass through him. He has always dreamed of Kai saying that to him. He sure has an answer ready for it too.
Before he knows it, the song has ended. Yixing does the last note with his guitar and Sehun just falls on his back, dropping on a beanbag. He’s tired.
Kai’s been running all day in his head.
His stupid crush ain’t going anywhere anytime soon.
♦
“Have you made up your mind on the setlist?” Kai hands a piece of torn paper to Yixing who is currently toning his Fender Strat. Yixing glances at it without even taking it from Kai’s hand before nodding towards Kris.
The taller blonde man is playing with his sticks when Kai approaches him with that cool face of his. “Any more suggestions?”
“Ask Tao.” Kris pretends to drum with the air as he speaks, not even looking up at Kai.
“Tao.” Kai calls out for him but the Chinese black-haired guy is busy making love with his bass guitar, stroking it lightly with his fingers from base to fretboard, checking for any scratch.
He only grunts with a “Sehun.”
Kai shrugs and moves towards Sehun who’s still catching his breath on the fluffy beanbag with his eyes closed.
Kai drops to his side, making the bag ball up suddenly on Sehun’s part. It startles the other while Kai just leans back and spreads his arm on Sehun’s slumped shoulders. Sehun opens his eyes to see a paper blocking his vision.
“Setlist for tomorrow. You have anything to add?”
The voice sends chills on Sehun’s arms and back but before he could comprehend what it said, he already imagines colourful clouds and butterflies set to fly towards a rainbow.
“Jesus.” He lets out.
“What?” Kai is tired too so he rests his head on Sehun’s shoulder as he stuffs the paper into Sehun’s hand so he can sleep this way.
“You’re too heavy!” Sehun pushes Kai off of the beanbag that supported both of them and Kai lands on his butt on the floor. Sehun is in panic deep inside, but he composes himself almost as fast as his heartbeats as of the moment. Kai rubs his back but stays still on the floor anyway and lies on it as he’s just too exhausted to move any more.
Sehun scans the setlist immediately and takes pity on Kai’s spent figure.
“This is good enough.” He comments before standing up from his seat and sticking the paper on Kai’s forehead. He kicks him on the leg before saying, “The beanbag is yours.”
♦
It’s Valentine’s Day and Paperdreams is invited to play on this big occasion held at their compound. This is why Kai and his band were too busy during the past few days, preparing for their performance for the night.
It’s sure that mostly couples would come and enjoy the event. Sehun doesn’t even have anyone special in his life so he’s not entirely excited. He’s going to celebrate it with his band anyway, the closest thing he could call family.
And well, there’s Kai.
Kris is setting up his drums while Yixing positions himself at the edge of the stage, legs hanging at the side as he checks his guitar for any out of tune’s. Tao is likely in the bathroom checking himself out or if his eyeliner is smeared-- one skill he learned from one of his Korean friends back at his hometown, some kid with really finely shaped fingers-- since he’s been nowhere on stage yet.
Sehun doesn’t bother checking his guitar unlike Yixing. He’s done that for over two hours now and he just couldn’t bear to keep on checking his guitar when he knows there’s nothing wrong with it. If there’s anything, it’s where Kai is now. He’s been late and Sehun has been checking his watch every 30 seconds just to see if his watch isn’t just working properly or if Kai really is late. He hardly gets late.
“Yeah, baby give me one more night.” Sehun sings to himself to entertain and ease his boredom as he sits on one of the amplifiers, drumming his fingers unconsciously.
“Trying to tell you no, but my body keeps on telling you yes.” He sings dully as he checks his watch one more time. The people around them are starting to get thick and there’s still no sign of Kai.
And then there’s him.
Sehun stands involuntarily as he sees Kai approaching them in a half-run, a huge smile on his face, which Sehun almost automatically just returns as the smile creeps on his face too, when his eyes fall on the thing in Kai’s hands.
The smile that has still been surfacing instantly drops. Kim Jongin is holding a bouquet of yellow flowers.
“Sorry.” Kai scratches the back of his head cutely. “Got stuck in traffic.”
He apologizes to his members with a small smile. Kris would have stuck a stick down his throat and roast him for dinner, but he has ample time for that later. They have to start.
“Get on.” Kris mutters in a menacing whisper and Kai knows he’s getting lucky for getting only that. Tao materializes next to him, hair gelled up the right way and eyeliner as thick as the bags under them.
Kai goes to the mic stand with the flowers still in one of his hands.
“Hello everyone.” His seemingly sexy voice booms up the buzzing night and the crowd turns to them in anticipation. They have always loved Kim Jongin’s voice. A few girly squeals went off from a distance and Kai smiles cockily at this.
“Happy Valentine’s day.” He cocks his head to the side with a smirk, the crowd giggles and the men kiss their dates.
“My girlfriend wants you!” A male voice yells from the right and the people erupt with laughter.
Kai feigns surprise and lets out an inaudible “oh” before a smile takes over his face.
“Sorry. I’m sort of unavailable tonight.” The female population lets out a ‘boo’ at this, showing their disappointment. A few men even shout “no fair!!” A playful smirk tugs at Kai’s lips.
“But I promise we’ll make this moment worth it, baby!” Kai announces to the mic with a manly scream. Cheers erupt from the crowd.
The frown on Sehun’s face deepens. He has never heard of Kai being taken. So what are the flowers for? He has never mentioned ever having a girlfriend. When has he ever got himself a girlfriend?
Kai looks around his back for his members’ confirmation. Kris gives him a thumbs up. Kai walks to the backstage, passing a stiff Sehun, to get his bottle of water and to place the flowers somewhere safe.
“Ready?” Kris asks through the mic as soon as Kai returns to his position.
“Yes we are.” Kai answers seductively, sending a wink to a random girl.
“1, 2, 3.”
“You and I go hard…”
Sehun manages to keep his poker face on the whole time. They’ve gone through a total of 13 songs, and the next one is the last one. He isn’t enjoying it. He tells himself it’s probably because he has never enjoyed Valentine’s day anyway at all. It’s always been just a day to him.
It’s not like he has never been in a relationship before. He already had. One time, with his senior back in his early years in high school. He was a really nice senior to him, has a baby-face and people would always think Sehun’s older than him. Their relationship was cute. But it was also short. It just didn’t work for him. For them. Sehun is in love with music. His senior thinks it’s a joke. Later on, he graduated with honors and had moved on to college. Sehun was left to repeat the same grade because apparently, he was so into music he has forgotten about his academics.
But it doesn’t matter. Sehun loves playing with his band.
And it still doesn’t change the fact that Valentine’s day is just a day to him. And romance doesn’t really work that well with everyone.
It doesn’t matter, Sehun thinks. He’s already deeply in love with what he does.
What he seemingly just can’t understand is why he’s feeling more bitter every single second right at this moment. He watches as Kai cracks his neck for the last stage and he can feel his own mood going down more.
When you can’t get into a relationship, it doesn’t mean others can’t as well, he tells himself.
Kai can fuck off and fuck anyone he wants tonight, you shouldn’t care, Sehun chants in his head.
Fuking Kai, fucking someone tonight, fuck, Sehun swallows all the water in his bottle in one huge gulp, the water trickling down his neck and he lets it.
“Sehun.” Kris calls his attention and he deadpans at him.
“What?”
“Last stage?” Kris looks at him impatiently.
“Dude. Duet with Kai.” Yixing walks to him and points at the piece of paper in his hand. The setlist.
Second To None. Party version. Kai ft. Sehun.
JFC.
Sehun’s eyes widen. Second to None? He sure scanned the setlist before, how does he not ever recall seeing it there?
Or maybe he was too pre-occupied with Kai on the floor that time that he missed it.
“Get on with it.” Yixing pushes him to the front with his guitar hanging loosely on his shoulder. Tao is giving him looks that say “you’re weird”. And Kai has been waiting for him there.
Sehun gulps. He was just trying to convince himself that Kai is allowed to fuck anyone tonight and now that he’s staring at him he’s changing his mind. He is not going to let Kai fuck anyone else tonight. Anyone else but-.
“Ready, Sehun?” Kai daubs his tongue out at the corner of his lips but Sehun could feel the genuine smile on his lips. His heart flutters for a second.
Sehun nods and Kai simply turns back to the audience.
“This is our last stage! I hope you enjoyed the night!”
Yixing’s guitar and Tao’s bass bellow through the cold night.
Sehun is sure he received heart-ripping, soul-clenching, and underwear-dropping stares exclusively from Kai during the last song. He doesn’t know how to put it but it seems like he was sending a message. But how can Sehun know? All that ran through his head that time was stripping Kai off of his clothes and taking him then and there after those stares. How is he supposed to stay coherent after that?
Sehun gulps another bottle of water down his throat at the backstage as the night has ended with the crowd cheering for them from the stage. He’s tired at the same time feeling accomplished at the successful turn out of events. He silently stands there with his coat off and only in a black tank, resting his back on the cold wall.
He eyes the flowers sitting directly in front of him with a frown.
A hand picks them up and Sehun almost chokes at the view in front of him. Kai completely lost his top and has been smiling at him half-naked.
“Great stage right there.” Kai nods at him after the compliment and gathers the bouquet in one hand. “Party at my house tonight. You coming?”
“Sure.” Sehun answers immediately. His eyes fall back to the flowers in his hand. “I thought you have a date?”
“Just about to.” Kai smirks and leaves him there. Sehun finds his behavior odd but he follows him out anyway. He grabs his coat and throws it at Kai when everyone screams as Kai walks out without his clothes on. Kai tucks himself safely in Sehun’s coat and smiles at him gratefully. Sehun just rolls his eyes.
They ride together back to Kai’s house and Sehun finds it suspiciously quiet.
“Where are Kris and Tao and the others?”
“They’ve gone ahead.” Kai unlocks the door with his key and turns on the light in a little click. The house is empty.
“By gone you mean…?” Sehun knits his eyebrows together impatiently at Kai. If he’s doing a joke on him, he’s surely going to pay him back.
“Gone as in went home.” Kai pulls Sehun lightly inside and closes the door. He removes Sehun’s coat off of him and hangs it on a nearby rack.
“I thought there’s a party.” Sehun clicks his tongue and raises his eyebrow at Kai. He’s tired and he wants to sleep, if it means he’s only going to witness Kai confessing to someone in the middle of the night.
The flowers flew from Kai’s hand to Sehun’s face.
“What the fuck?” Sehun catches it alright, after it bounced from his face.
“You’re too slow sometimes.” There’s a playful smile on Kai’s lips. He chuckles.
“What?” Sehun asks helplessly. He couldn’t ride in on the joke, not especially when the joke is seemingly to be him.
“Too slow.” Kai walks to him and smacks him on the back of his head lightly. “I just gave you flowers and you still don’t get it.”
Sehun looks down on the yellow flowers. Then Kai’s words echo in his head.
“WHAT?”
“What?” Kai returns the question innocently.
Sehun’s jaw drops. “Kim Jongin, are you saying you like me?”
Kai smiles cheekily. “What do you think?”
“I don’t want to think! I’ve been thinking for the past few days already!” Sehun whines and pushes the flowers back to Kai’s chest.
“I don’t want to say it.” Kai refuses and turns his back on him childishly.
“Not until you say what you’ve been thinking of lately.” Kai continues playfully.
Sehun contemplates. He never knew Kai swings that way. True, Kai has never had a girlfriend all his life, but it shouldn’t automatically mean he’s gay. Sehun has always thought Kai’s just a reserved type, he’s picky and he hasn't found the right girl for him yet. But this… this is saying otherwise.
And no, how can this perfect human being in front of him, who makes girls swoon over him, the one whom every other single girl, even those not single, in their neighbourhood wants to have is giving him flowers and telling him to think of what it means.
And Sehun doesn’t want to take advantage of that. It’s all his fault. He can’t let Kai succumb to his urges just because they sang a fucking suggestive sex song together. No matter how bad he wants him.
“Ya, Kim Jongin!” Sehun faces him and slams the flowers back to his hand. The bouquet drops to the floor.
“Get over it. I’m going home.” Sehun turns his back and walks to the door.
Kai’s face reddens. “Are you rejecting me?”
“Of course!” Sehun responds almost at once. “Yes!”
“Why?” Kai’s face falls into a serious one. The playful aura is gone and he feels as if he’s been slapped on the face.
“Kim Jongin, you’re not gay. You can’t like me.”
“But you like me!” Kai points it out confidently. Sehun pauses for a while.
“It doesn’t mean you have to return it!” Sehun wants to pull at his hair at the embarrassing confession. How is he ever going to face Kai the next day as soon as this conversation is done?
“But I thought when someone likes a person and the person likes him back, it would work.” Kai cocks an eyebrow at him, still hurt at the way Sehun just rejected him.
“So, you really do like me?” Sehun gasps at the realization. It’s not getting any easier.
Kai picks up the flower on the floor and stares at it. “I especially waited for this day.”
Something tugs at Sehun’s heart. Why did that have an effect on him?
“Fine. You can go.” Kai tells him irritably and stares at him.
Sehun is rooted to his spot. What is he supposed to say to that? Okay?
Sehun is still weighing the consequences in his head when Kai speaks up again.
“If you don’t in 5 seconds, I’ll have to kiss you.”
Shit.
That’s the biggest temptation Sehun has ever heard all his life. And now how many seconds have passed while he thinks of what to do?
“I-”
But Kai is striding towards him in three huge steps. Their lips are only a centimeter apart when Kai stops.
“Just this one night.”
The plea sounds so casual yet so heavy. Kai closes the gap between them and Sehun could only take a hushed intake of breath.
Sehun’s thoughts are in haywire as he tries to recall how they have ended up in the kitchen. But the loud clangs he could hear are definitely kitchenware. His back feels cold from the contact of the silverware on his skin while Kai kisses him senseless on a countertop. He kisses him back forcefully, not in any way admitting defeat from Kai’s domineering tongue. They’ve both rid themselves of their tops and Sehun is now clawing at Kai’s neck and back.
“Hng.” Sehun lets out a moan when Kai sucks on the skin just above his collarbone, turning his pale skin into a purplish one while he tugs on his waist and Sehun jumps at his hips, wrapping his legs around him. Kai carries him on the tabletop, not losing contact with his neck and places him there. He lies Sehun there and lets him go quick enough for him to climb on top of him on the table.
“Is this not going to break?” Sehun fears the hard wooden table as Kai’s weight adds with his.
Kai smirks. “I’m not doing you here.”
The thrill meter Sehun has been trying to calm down since Kai has kissed him shoots up to another level. He’s not sure if he’s excited because they’re not going to do it on a hard surface or because they’re actually going to do it.
Kai dives back to his business and kisses, bites, marks him on his naked upper body.
“Are you okay with oral?” There’s a tinge of red that spread on Kai’s cheeks and if anything, it makes Sehun bolder. Sehun licks his lips as a response to Kai and Kai bites his lip.
Sehun reaches for Kai’s pants without hesitation and frees his half-hardened member with a tug. Kai breathes heavily on top of him as he watches Sehun’s hand do all the wonders to his bestfriend. Kai lets out a few whimpers as Sehun tugs at him forcefully and makes Kai kneel in front of his face. Kai sits on Sehun’s chest and Sehun only supports himself through his elbows.
Kai swallows a deep breath when he feels Sehun’s lips wrap tightly around his head. Watching it makes him harder and the way Sehun swirls his tongue skilfully takes him to the edge. Sehun grasps the base tightly and kneads the flesh around it. Soft moans echo in the kitchen room while they both listen to Sehun’s slick licking noises when Sehun sucks in so suddenly.
“Ugh.” Kai falls on all fours as Sehun gives another huge suck, his head about to explode from the pleasure it’s giving him. Sehun snakes his own hand down his torso and under his bottoms. He fishes for his own member and strokes himself while giving Kai the best blowjob he has ever done yet.
The table’s legs start to shake as Kai starts to mildly thrust into Sehun’s mouth. However, he pulls himself out out of the blue and hurriedly kisses Sehun against his mouth again.
“Bed.” He croaks against his lips as he slips off of the table and pulls Sehun away from the kitchen and into his bedroom. They’ve been here together for quite a number of times before. Usually they hang out after practice or sometimes just give each other company when they want to compose their own songs. But they’re here for a different reason now.
Kai could hardly wait for the bed when he pulls Sehun in for a wet kiss. They both drop on the bed with a soft thump and they bump their heads together.
“Ow!”
“Ow.” Kai winces and rubs his forehead.
Sehun giggles.
“What’s funny?”
“Are you a virgin?”
Kai raises an eyebrow. “I am.”
Sehun leans forward with the aid of his elbows to plant a kiss on Kai’s lips. “I wouldn’t have guessed.”
“And you’re not?”
“Nope.”
“I wouldn’t have guessed.”
Sehun slaps his arm. They are currently in an awkward position, especially since Kai’s member is poking Sehun on the stomach while he lies on top of him.
Kai gives him another long breath-taking kiss. “C’mon, we only have 10 minutes left to take away my virginity on Valentine’s day.”
“Are you only aiming for that?”
Kai shrugs before diving back for his lips, biting occasionally. Soon, the cold air hits their naked state and Kai delves under the blankets while they dance together in a rhythm only their hips could make. Moans and groans elicit their mouths and form their own melody against the sound of the slapping of their skins.
Sehun wraps his legs around Kai’s hips and Kai angles him quite effectively.
“Just a little more.”
Sehun grunts, curses, and groans every single thrust. It creates a new type of music in Kai’s ears and he finds it pretty addictive. He works harder and plunges deeper causing the both of them to whimper.
“I’m gonna-”
“Me too-”
They both let out a long moan as their release are in sync with each other.
“Holy fuck.” Sehun mutters sensually as Kai rides their climax.
“Urgh.” Kai collapses on top of Sehun and rests his face on the pillow under Sehun’s head.
“So the goal is to score on Valentine’s day?”
“Hm.” Kai hums in response.
“So this is only for one night?” Sehun confirms.
“Yeah.” Kai buries his head on Sehun’s shoulder and kisses it once.
Sehun suddenly feels annoyed at his action. He feels his heart crack open at that. Does that mean he just became an instrument tonight? Is he right when he thought Kai only had this urge because they did the song together?
Kai pulls out of him and falls to his side. He lies on his back on the bed next to Sehun, his chest rising and falling rapidly.
“On second thought,” Kai takes a look at Sehun. “Can I have one more night?”
A small smile escapes Sehun’s lips. Kai returns it with a smirk. That look means something else. They both know it’s not only for one night. It’s going to go along with that song.
“Tsk. You’re weak. I want another round.” Sehun pushes himself off the bed and straddles Kai.
“Hah, save some for tomorrow.” Kai pulls Sehun down and kisses him eagerly.
“You know I really like you, right?”
Sehun hugs his body for some warmth. “I do.”
“Happy Valentine’s day, Sehun.”
“…It’s the 15th already.”