Instigation
Instigate: to urge, provoke, or incite to some action or course.
I've found something that occurs almost constantly when I verbally confront others, I instigate situations in to worse ones with out even noticing. The thing that unnerves me the most about it is that I dont know where it began. I remember doing it jokingly with friends but never as serious as its gotten now. I remember it flashing up rather violently with Karen, and now with that Girl. Its just something that kills me, because I never really intentionally mean to exacerbate things to the degree that they get to. I used to love hanging out with Karen, when it was all playful and no real problems, sure we always fought I just dont really remember the transition from play to anger. Now im faced with the exact same conundrum and I feel lost and out of place with my own actions, that just doesn't happen, Im normally in full control of my actions and have good standing for why I do them but with this I feel that Im at a loss.
I feel that if I dont get control of my tongue it truly will be the end of me.
Justin.
I've found something that occurs almost constantly when I verbally confront others, I instigate situations in to worse ones with out even noticing. The thing that unnerves me the most about it is that I dont know where it began. I remember doing it jokingly with friends but never as serious as its gotten now. I remember it flashing up rather violently with Karen, and now with that Girl. Its just something that kills me, because I never really intentionally mean to exacerbate things to the degree that they get to. I used to love hanging out with Karen, when it was all playful and no real problems, sure we always fought I just dont really remember the transition from play to anger. Now im faced with the exact same conundrum and I feel lost and out of place with my own actions, that just doesn't happen, Im normally in full control of my actions and have good standing for why I do them but with this I feel that Im at a loss.
I feel that if I dont get control of my tongue it truly will be the end of me.
Justin.