From the Ashes...
It's odd. This year has been, by and large, very strange. It started off catastrophic. At one point I just didn't even care enough to get up in the morning. Then tragedy really struck, and it jogged me out of my weird hang-up. Some other stuff happened after, but it honestly wasn't enough to affect me.
Truth is, I started taking anti-depressants and going to the psychologist on a regular basis. That lead to re-evaluating my lifestyle choices and finding that, while being a passive observer in your life is momentarily comfortable, it is in the long run horrible.
I registered for college. I'm going to be studying either to be a translator or an English professor (I'm still undecided, so I signed up for both). I have an entrance exam in March; classes, I believe, start in April. I have now officially taken my first step towards having an actual future.
I quit smoking, too. Got sick one day and stopped to get better and... well... I haven't smoked since. (Thank you bphaines for reminding me, I can't believe I actually forgot).
I also recently found someone. Well. That's not right. I think it's more accurate (and cheesy) to say I finished a long and arduous fall towards love-of-someone. She came to visit me for a month and a half, was here for my birthday... now we're seeing how soon she can get her ass back here. I may still be lonely -- but I'm not alone anymore.
2008 was a weird year -- but I know that I turned it around for myself, not some happenstance of chance -- and for the first time in a long time I'm truly anxious to see what next year holds in store for me.
Truth is, I started taking anti-depressants and going to the psychologist on a regular basis. That lead to re-evaluating my lifestyle choices and finding that, while being a passive observer in your life is momentarily comfortable, it is in the long run horrible.
I registered for college. I'm going to be studying either to be a translator or an English professor (I'm still undecided, so I signed up for both). I have an entrance exam in March; classes, I believe, start in April. I have now officially taken my first step towards having an actual future.
I quit smoking, too. Got sick one day and stopped to get better and... well... I haven't smoked since. (Thank you bphaines for reminding me, I can't believe I actually forgot).
I also recently found someone. Well. That's not right. I think it's more accurate (and cheesy) to say I finished a long and arduous fall towards love-of-someone. She came to visit me for a month and a half, was here for my birthday... now we're seeing how soon she can get her ass back here. I may still be lonely -- but I'm not alone anymore.
2008 was a weird year -- but I know that I turned it around for myself, not some happenstance of chance -- and for the first time in a long time I'm truly anxious to see what next year holds in store for me.