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Between looking for jobs and trying to get started in college, while not having a car to drive to either if I had to... I'm quickly losing my will to live again.
I honestly do not want to be alive right now.
I have noticed that having to go through all this bullshit again drains my life from me. I am just not made for this world, and I hate the bullshit we have to go through just to fucking live here. If it costs so dearly just to deserve a place in the world I was born in... then I would rather die. And I am completely serious about that. I would rather die than waste my time on all this.
I honestly do not want to be alive right now.
I have noticed that having to go through all this bullshit again drains my life from me. I am just not made for this world, and I hate the bullshit we have to go through just to fucking live here. If it costs so dearly just to deserve a place in the world I was born in... then I would rather die. And I am completely serious about that. I would rather die than waste my time on all this.