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I feel like all my dreams are comming true. I had an amazing talk with *the boy* this weekend, and then we moved his stuff into our new apartment (I was horrified to discover the refrigerator is from the 1970's and secretly hope it stops running in the next week so we can get a new one). I'm getting a horse in July!!!!! (sheena's been asking for months if I wanted him and I was undecided until she asked again today and it occured to me that few experiences in life can top the fierce joy and contentment I get from riding.) I think I've decided on a jeep wrangler after all for my new form of transportation
I feel like I'm about to open a door and step out onto a green field of opportunity, and life's going to start for real, and everything up to this moment was just practice and I get to choose what to take with me and what to leave. I get to shed my skin and leave behind all of my mistakes, old scars, and bitterness. My future is now, and it really is everything i hoped for. I get to start new hopes & dreams, new goals.
(Somewhere in this I began to realize I've lost some of my cynicism, I'm not as jaded as I used to be, and I wonder what it could be -- the stability, the financial security, or something else?)
I feel like I'm about to open a door and step out onto a green field of opportunity, and life's going to start for real, and everything up to this moment was just practice and I get to choose what to take with me and what to leave. I get to shed my skin and leave behind all of my mistakes, old scars, and bitterness. My future is now, and it really is everything i hoped for. I get to start new hopes & dreams, new goals.
(Somewhere in this I began to realize I've lost some of my cynicism, I'm not as jaded as I used to be, and I wonder what it could be -- the stability, the financial security, or something else?)