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I can't remember the last time I wanted something and didn't get it.
I had my whole life mapped out based around my career, but those plans have turned to dust. I knew exactly where I was going, I was so confident in my future. I feel so lost now. (my pride is severely wounded.)
I had already made all my big decisions. I KNEW what I was going to do. And so I'm mad that my life's not turning out the way I wanted it to (I also feel like a failure and since I never even considered that something like this could happen, I don't have a Plan B and I feel like my life is going to suck and be meaningless after this.)
I know, ultimately, that things will work out. I'll decide what I'm going to do next year and I'll go out and just rock the shit out of whatever that is. I will accept and then embrace my fate.
But right now I wan't to throw a tantrum because this isn't what I wanted. Life wasn't supposed to happen this way.
I had my whole life mapped out based around my career, but those plans have turned to dust. I knew exactly where I was going, I was so confident in my future. I feel so lost now. (my pride is severely wounded.)
I had already made all my big decisions. I KNEW what I was going to do. And so I'm mad that my life's not turning out the way I wanted it to (I also feel like a failure and since I never even considered that something like this could happen, I don't have a Plan B and I feel like my life is going to suck and be meaningless after this.)
I know, ultimately, that things will work out. I'll decide what I'm going to do next year and I'll go out and just rock the shit out of whatever that is. I will accept and then embrace my fate.
But right now I wan't to throw a tantrum because this isn't what I wanted. Life wasn't supposed to happen this way.