should be doing my essay, but
i need this here too
personal and if you dont like, idgaf
you know when you lay in your bed at 2am and you try to sleep because you have class the next day, but you simply cant. then you stay awake looking at your ceiling and thoughts crawl in your head……
what if i had gone to another high school (i wouldnt have met the most amazing people in my life)
what if i had studied more (probably would be studying at some public uni)
what if i had never moved away after high school (would still live near those wonderful people)
what if i had done so many things different it hurts and probably wouldnt be me.
i am tired of doing things and try lo live expectations for other people, i have done it all my life, i even do it here, posting what i think it will get more reblogs. i’m done. i have to live my expectation, what i want to be, and work with. not what others (hello mom and dad) want me to do.
if this blog is mine i should post more stuff that i like, my fcs, my thoughts, my pictures. i’m not doing another blog, i shouldnt have to, afterall, slash is part of my life as any otherbook or music i love.
so this post is to remind me to have faith in what i am and in the choices i have made, be those good or bad.
this is me finally taking the lead in my life